waiting for the transition of 2012

"every man must do 2 things alone.his own believing and his own dying".martin luther

2012-01-20T09:31:00.000-08:00

my pc finally fixed..was a nightmare.these pc's always trying trying to outsmart us human's LOL.only took me 3 weeks to fix and was something so simple,that i never would have thought of ...

back to blogging.its been longtime and had a few significant dreams to bring to the fore:its been said that we all have aleast one book in us and mine seems to be thru-dreams.thats when i seem to do my best work.like WOW! cant believe i dreamed that..

Quote:Black Elk "sometimes dreams are wiser than waking."

"dreams are illustrations from the book your soul is writing about you ."marsha norman

this is the dream i had a few nights ago.i keep my bedroom really dark as so im not distracted.i opened my eyes (was not completely awake)it was about 4am and when i did my whole bedroom was dimly lite with soft-lite.i saw on my white walls and white ceiling completely covered with Geometry Symbol's.never ever in my entire life seen anything like that before.closed my eyes and went back to sleep.when i got up around 6am all i could say is WOW !!

later that day was looking thru-old emails that i had not read because my pc was being weird and i found newsletter from early jan2012 and here a small paragraph.sacred geometry symbol's these symbols are being downloaded inside of us...with our permission..they dont make sense now but they will in the future!geometry,the foundation of the new world..."how cool is that." i guess my mind and body right on target..according to these dreams and not just mine..its a collective (means all).geometry part of the natural world.(i cant read geometry but looks rather interesting)i get alot of downloads at night and im not sure what they all mean yet.im sure they will play important role,time to come!!

everything in manifested form is always created in spirit first..without knowing..this is true with our partners to be!! its all played out in dreams..i know first hand..been there done that..LOL

i have that problem of ringing and disortions in the ears,as many people do and found this little bit of info..calibration /ringing in ears....fine tuning our personal energy field.thomas pafe sept.2011

this is from update by lauren gorgo..the ultr-sensitive have been waiting for ..to balance themselves and be released from the electro-magnetic distortions that caused so much suffering for so many years.. (this is so true)i hear all that noise when im trying to sleep at night.certainly get very aggervating..i feel this will be that last year we have to go thru-this stuff.

think i wrote enough for today..i have more dreams to write about..will do it in future..im just so happy that my pc working correctly again..its so exciting LOL.

Want to say Happy New Year everyone!!!!! many blessings for 2012

love marylen

Happy new year everyone!! i didnt die LOL just having computer problems

2012-01-08T09:01:00.000-08:00

hope to have it fixed in another week or so!!hopefully this year will get better didnt start out so good so far...be back on line as soon as possible thanks marylen

"As people are walking all the time,in the same spot.a path appears". Luxun

2011-11-03T12:01:00.000-07:00

"the collective vibration is now beginning to take and hold your own power".s.rother lightworker.com

A new day is dawning!the era we lived through called the dark-ages now completing itself and a new cycle for our planet and all that lives on her....begins!!

11-11-11 right around the corner. from what i read we will know where we're suppose to go next.i read that we will have uplifting in consciousness.we have done the work and its completion time........yahooooooooo !! im sure after 11-11-11 we will have some exciting times.to me it means walking through two giant white pillars into a higher vibration.its our next step in evolution..cant wait,i have worked so hard to get to this point..everyday of my life i keep saying God im so tired,God tired of listening to that same old phrase.LOL anyway im sure we will have some nice surprises from the universe.the mayan calander ended according to calleman.com on oct28-11 so now we must expect the unexpected!! we're at completion and guess that means we must stand on our on two feet..that will be fun ! lol

my quote since i love to quote.i do have few quotes of my own.."cant stay on the roost forever.you have to fly eventually".

also:

I went through-death like the caterpillar only to later emerge as a beautiful winged moth"the Butterfly".

i want to write about a dream i had recently because i feel its a collective dream (means all).i was so shook-up when i woke up because it seem so real..earth was moving at a high-rate of speed.as abruptly as it started it stopped.we,a few people in the house didnt know what was happening.me and a guy(not sure who he was)starting crawling on the floor toward each other.to hang-on to each other so we wouldnt fall off.all the people in the house we're dressed in white.like white shorts and white tee-shirt.i say that means its a spiritual dream. after few minutes(seem like hours) the fast movement stopped.it felt like one of those amusement park rides goes around and around so fast that one dont know which end is up. we we're all so scared in the dream.there's no earth shaking in the dream just going around fast..i dont know if this mean the magnetic poles being realigned and balanced and us with it...not sure.all i can say this was an eye-opening dream..mabey its a premonition but all i can say Hang onto your hats and get ready for a wild ride!! i get goose-bumps writing this dream.its comes from my inner core..wanted to share this dream as i feel it has much-importance..

i havent been blogging much lately just been in a stalemate mood not sure if has anything to do with all the changing energies out there or not..im sure it will pass soon..

i wish us all good luck on 11-11-11 those numbers cause a tingle of excitement in me for some reason...

takecare! the holiday coming up soon so i wont be back blogging until jan2012 (awe!! that has a ring to it)
want to wish everyone Happy Holidays!!!!!!!!!! many blessing marylen

native american quotes:"when the earth is sick,the animals will begin to disappear.when that happens.the warriors of the rainbow will save them."chief seattle

2011-09-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

"one does not sell the land people walk on".crazy horse

"after ascension process a person can live 150yrs or longer if they choose".aluna joy yaxin

in the past several yrs.i have kept alot of notes,so i will remember all the things i went through.with my fatigue being so bad i couldn't do very much except write notes and walk in nature,but it was a time of contemplation for me.a time to reconnect with self as i did much soul-searching..i was looking for many answer's.i spent most of my time pretty-much in isolation or should i say being a hermit as my sister calls me.i have found back through my notes alot of poetry.i never knew how to write poetry in my life but past few yrs i truly lived from my heart based thinking!! so here a small sample of one of my writings:

I have discovered the Devine Gold within.it came with a price bought and paid for by life's hard work.
what seems mudane is shaping and proding the devine gold within.
we all have to bend and be molded.strife and structure,it all goes into the clay.
then comes the pain,struggles,stinkin attitudes goes into the clay as well.
all blended and blended and over time...Volaire!!
we're polished and shiny creatures of the most high.
Our Gold shines through!!!

"dont do what your taught to do.do what you love to do".david foster

i have really been feeling lousy lately.i have developed tenditis in my shoulder and and bottom of my left heel.so much soreness in back of my neck and mid-back as well.i feel like a mess.probably something to do with so many solar-storms hitting this planet...enough already !!

one more quote and im signing off for now."if you cant find christmas in your heart.you cant find it under the tree". beliefnet.com

many blessings love marylen

"the truth is within you.you dont have to join anything or follow anyone to find it.its the same with God." pointsofpower.com.au also "change always leads to something greater.no exceptions."

2011-08-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

"you're the caterpillar about to become more than you already are".crystalinks.com/butterfly

i found in my notes interesting paragraph from deepak chopra book spontaneous filfullment of desire. In our time here on earth the individual-soul wont be filfilled unless it complete's its mythical quest which we can think of as the grand plan around which our destiny's are organized.every human being there's an overaching theme a template for heroic living a God or Goddess in embryo that yearns to be born.thats who we were meant to be.out of that is born love and compassion.out of that comes fulfillment and completion.

i havent blogged in awhile.my system's revved up lately.having bad headache's im sure its because of the solar storm.all the CME's coming toward earth.its affects my nervous system and causes me to be highly tempermental.are we ever going to get relief from these CME's ? i havent been able to do anything lately because i feel like a neon flashing lite and sleeping at night well thats history..im awake half the night every night.

"watch the sky.earth will be having birth pains".the bible
seems change is upon us.

i read someplace recently that the Great Purification started in oct2007 and will end oct2014.for me it started around 1999-2000 timeline. mabey the second wave started in 2007 but for many of us we started the cleansing process way before that.

"this cycle of destruction and creation has happened before and its about to happen again". osfa.org.uk also each of us has a different path which we are to find our own !!

we are all going thru-a snake like process of shedding our old skin-so we can have a brand-new rebirth!!

we just have to let-go and trust the process.i go with my inner guidance system..let-go of the struggle and go with the flow..

"inside myself is a place where i live all alone and thats where you renew your spring that never dry's up".pearl s.buck

stay in love and kindness!! many blessings marylen

"the inhabitants of this earth do not find themselves at the same degree of evolution.the new wave will be felt by each one of us and this transformation will not only touch the earth but the ensemble of the entire cosmos". peter deunov 1944 prophecy

2011-07-16T10:33:00.000-07:00

someone ask Buddha,what did you do before enlightenment? he replied "chop wood and carry water". what did you do after enlightenment? he replied "chop wood and carry water". to me this was so funny wanted to write it down LOL

i found some interesting things on crystalinks.com about white buffalo!!
white symbolizes moving into higher frequency of light and consciousness.white buffalo is such a phenomenon because they're so rare!
to the native americans the birth of a white buffalo is a symbol of rebirth and world harmony! my God we sure could use some world harmony at the moment..seems this whole world in state of chaos!! in my opinion.

also found this page59 in barbara marciniak book.family of light very interesting. earth magnetic field is becoming weaker;physical and mental structures are not held in place in the same way.when the magnetic field weaken,chaos occurs.

in a dream i had (very brief) 3-4weeks ago.i seen me getting back up out of bed.for the last 10yrs i kept a bed on sofa and bed in my bedroom going all the time as i rested alot.i felt deep within i had to stay in the restful position as i was always exhausted.so in the dream i seen me getting up and completely out of bed the final time to get back into life..i took a time out that lasted far longer than i ever anticipated.. that was quiet a process that i and im sure many others endured.i noticed getting back out in the world that communicating with people,its very different now.people are so touchy!they go off like a short fuse!! i guess going thru-this transition made us all alittle hypersensitive..the old way will never work now as we're in the heart-soul base thinking.
we attract people with the same frequency.. i think back over last 10yrs and said "God what did i just go through"? as i look back seems like a dream like state that is fading..we're all in the process of soul-expansion and i know from my prespective this was very difficult to get through but we made it !!!!!!!!

"put your ear down close to your soul and listen hard".anne sexton

i love to quote and i know i say that all the time but its true LOL

"too many people miss out on the silver lining because they're expecting gold".maurice selter

i say this all the time "going thru-this process of soul expansion caused me to be very humble and appreciative of life.nature seems so much more beautiful now than ever before..also very happy i got thru-this process in one piece..thought God was going to kill me by scrubbing me to death LOL

lots of love and many blessings too!! love marylen

"we must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned so as to have the life that is awaiting us.the old skin has to be shed before the new one is to come".joseph campbell

2011-06-12T08:43:00.000-07:00

"carlos barrios,from the eagle clan of the maya of guatemala.shares in regard to 2012:the world will not END.it will be transformed.everything will change.change is accelerating now and it will continue to accelerate.if the people of the earth can get to this 2012 date in good shape without having destroyed to much of the earth we will rise to a new higher level.

i'm looking thru-my notes of many yrs to get a topic i like to write about or should say what im passionate about and i didnt find a topic but my pen just seem to take-off on its own.what im passionate about about is spiritual growth.it comes from within.you can't get it from a church its already within you!! it comes from connecting to your inner source and not the outside world.i spent 56yrs of my life feeling empty inside like something was missing and i kept searching for fulfillment to fill up my void. i did do all things that i wanted to do,like have nice car and nice house and i always love to dress nice.i worked at big chain dept.store so i always had nice clothes for less.all that back then was very important to me but something was still missing.getting those goose bumps again writing this.LOL i did leave the outside world (i just step off into the unknown)i must have have inner-guidance to do this..i was scared to death and thought i lost my mind LOL.

i went to my inside world(all the magic lies there). my sister called me a hermit but i dont regret it at all now.i no longer have the emptyness and the void.its all filled.im more emotional now.back then my daughter said i had no feelings and now im hypersensitive. going thru-all this was a big transition for me because i had to leave my entire 56yrs of who i was "behind".was a big wake-up call for me.i left my friends and most of my family behind to enter "quietude".after a decade it finally finished.my cleasing process complete.i thought God was going to scrub me to death..LOL

i read someplace that it takes 12.8yrs to complete the process that i and so many others went through but its all worth it in the end.we have spiritual freedom.....AWE sigh of relief..

"the 4th world shall end soon and the 5th world will begin.this the elders everywhere know.the signs over many years have been fulfilled and so few are left".hopi prophecy

i was reading mike quinsey/salusa from sirius and i was awe-struck by what i was reading in an awesome way!!
you will have a number of new concepts to get use to in due course.bear in mind that in your new bodies you will not experience the frailties you do on earth and if ever in need of healingwill receive sound,light and color.therefore,medicine and drugs that are used now will have no place or be necessary.

always be in gratitude and love!! many blessing..marylen

"we are the one's we've been waiting for".Hopi nation

2011-05-14T09:39:00.000-07:00

"bluestar signal's the beginning of a time of great purification".the Hopi

"new wobble of the earth.earth spinning one-thousand mile per hour right now.earth in a wobble somthing to worry about?no,its something to celebrate! we each have a unique signature just as earth does"..steve rother/the group

the more i read,im starting to feel good about the end of this cycle.i read on another website that the sun is neutralizing the radiation that coming into the planet.that's very good news..also read we're now in the process of adjusting to higher frequencies of electromagnetic light current's..we human's have come along way thru-all ups and downs and weather changes and whatever the universe slings at us and we have made it thru-all the turmoil.were here,we made it and now our etheric egg starting to crack and i know without a doubt we will be a butterfly!!

luke:21:25 there shall be signs in the sun and in the moon and in the stars and upon the earth distress of nations with perplexity.the sea and waves roaring..king james bible

God brought us to these changes and he'll bring us thru-it..without a scratch,i'm sure !!

our soul's journey upward:if we live through our heart brain we vibrate higher energy.our deep love for the universe radiates compassion for all life form's.we're all here to help each other our brothers and sisters of this planet.when i talk to people about all the changes happening all over,about ascension and raising our vibration,alot say Yea,right..i try to spread the word as to what we're going thru-as i went thru-it myself..i found out alot of people going through ascension symptoms but dont understand what's happening therefore they dont say anything as they think they'll be judge as off-their-rocker LOL
few years back at my daughter's college grad.i was talking to few of her guy friends about these thing just discussed and one the guys said:What Have You Been Drinking!!LOL oh well !! to each their own perspective...cant pressure people.they must learn for themselves.experience the best teacher.. "when the student is ready the teacher will appear".

i myself feel totally intergrated and emerged with the new energies and im ready to take my one foot out and stand in the new world.. i have said since the 1980's i feel like i walk in 2 worlds..so ready to just walk in the new and let the old fall away!!

sorry took me so long to write a blog..i just have been so busy lately..i dogsit for neigbor and baysit for my daughter and then there was mother's day!! to much for me as im starting to make my way back to middle-of the road energy..spent most my life being hyper and last 10yrs at snail's pace but now its happy medium.. i see with more clarity now than ever before..all these things i'm so grateful..love that heart based thinking..

many blessing!! love marylen

"when the soul becomes divine it becomes a diamond.reflecting the divine light and forming an aura of delicate tint's around itself.such is the perfect human soul;the human soul aspires toward perfection"peter deunov

2011-04-06T09:22:00.000-07:00

"the only source of knowledge is experience"albert einstein

people need to live from a place of simple joys.leave stress behind.live from a place of heart based thinking.i was one of those who always analyzed everything thing to death.living to much from the outside world view point.then when i learnt to relax from not being able to do anything else because of c.fatigue syn.i started to look from a new perspective.from the inside heart based thinking.i discovered my own true feelings.when i grew up down south many yrs ago emotions weren't an option.at my age now its a true joy to live thru-the heart and my connection to the universe."its an honor". just took me long time to realize all this.to get out of my brain thinking and into my heart thinking.when i write these blog's its one big goose bump!! i do love writing as i have had many,many experiences!! thank you dear God as i have finally come to my sanity!! LOL

a part of us must die before another part can come to life.this is a natural and necessary..its painful,confusing and disorienting.these shifts thru-out our lives as humans.we must shed our old self to move up our spiritual ladder to our next level..the next step in evolution.
we must say goodbye to our bestfriend(ourselves).thats the hard part a part of yourself you have know all your life.(i used to cry all the time going thru-this part)..in order to take on a new spiritual identity we must let old self-go and step into who we really are our God selves. we will step into our big-shoes that have been sitting in the corner waiting for us to step into them.our etheric egg's are cracking and we're being transformed into our brand way of being.we're offspring of the most high..

it was such a struggle for me to get to this point.. as i look back all the painful growth and body symptoms i had to go thru-to get to this point.(as we all did)i was cuz-ing alot back then because of the pain LOL.its all starting to fade and alot and it's hard for me to recall but i did write it down for future reference.just in case.i did keep many,many journals thru-this transition.. . going up the next rung of the ladder.

i do honor my past now with love and respect.it has brought me to this realiztion in life and now i have the opportunity for rebirth and fresh new perspective.im in gratitude!!

"sometimes we need to lose everything we have in order to find everything we are" pointsof power.com.au

"the butterfly does not think like a caterpillar but the community of caterpillar's dont understand that". pointsof power.com.au

keep love in your heart and many blessings!! love marylen

"all nature is acting if it we're one organism.even people feel different during various seasons and some people get depressed in winter and fall in love in springtime.biochemically certain changes in your body corresponds to the movement of our planet.all of nature is a symphony and we're part of it".Deepak Chopra

2011-03-05T08:08:00.000-08:00

simplicity is a keynote of my kingdom.choose simple things always. love and reverence .the humble and the simple.have only simple things here.your standards must never be the world's standards!! daily devotional

we're going into a bumpy-ride for next few yrs.like in said in my last post "this is the best of times and this is the worst of times".i feel the middle-east after all said and done will beome the peacemakers of the world.

endings and new beginnings simultaneously.before we get to the new beginning we go thru-a void.there anew creativity is born.there on a spiritual level we connect to all life.. i know as i went thru it.we will realize that we're much more then we ever thought !!

love frequency being activated one person at a time.i see so much more compassion in the world than ever before.you'll be flooded with feelings of love..this is the unfolding of the soul...finally.(took eon's to emerge)

"the human race will unify as a single circuit.solar and galactic sound transmissions will inundate the planetary field.a current charging both poles will race across the skies connecting the polar auroras in a single brillant flash".jose arguelles

"self-trust is the first secret of sucess".ralph waldo emerson

i have really been out of sorts lately.i been planning on writing this
blog since last week. i having foggy-thinking.havent had this in several yrs.also having alot of headaches and shooting pains in my left ear.im thinking this is from solar-flares(cme).im trying to stay calm and hopefully they'll disappear!! solar activity is know to affect the central nervous system and human consciousness,thats probably what's causing my anxiety especially middle of the night.im highly sensitive to all the elements out there.

luke 8:17 for nothing is secret,that shall not be made manifest:neither anything hid,that shall not be made known and come aboard...king james bible

"dont judge each-day by the harvest you reap,but by the seed's you plant".
robert louis stevenson

think i have wrote enough for today..keep smiling and many blessings!! love marylen

course in miracles states:nothing real can be threatened,nothing unreal exists.herein lies the peace of god !!

2011-02-03T09:21:00.000-08:00

"2012 and beyond we will be directed in life by the soul".soulworks2012

Quote: white eagle"each one of you has been called.every individual soul has work to do.none can do the work of another.each must do his own work.therefore,we say,accept it,my child.accept the task laid before you and pray to the great spirit that you may not fail".

i found this message on mike quinsey and the galactic federation:what's interesting is that you were your own ancestors.hence,it explains why some of you feel strong pull toward certain civilizations.it can affect your taste and preferences even today.
i believe this to be true as i have had dreams of so many different places in the past.my past lives seem to be coming to the fore in this lifetime.i get so much info through dreams as im still crying this morn because of dream early this morn.a prohetic dream
im hoping this dream isn't real but way i felt emotionally im sure its very real..its about a good friends dog.she's one yr old now.will update this dream in the future now im still crying.........have bad headache from the crying..do we human's have to be so emotional?? LOL

these two quotes are from julie diamondlightworld.com"ascension is really expansion,its expansion of self in all dimension's and direction's.you will live from the soul as a sovereign,divine being in human form". "your old auric field is literally being fried and requires a new structural architecture to enable you to benefit from the enhanced energies".

looks like 2012 changes coming in fast.making my head spin LOL.i read somewhere cant remember where that these are the "best of time and the worst of times".i think people will have diffulty in letting go of the old familiar ways of life and same way of doing things.my relative's are like that they learnt the hard way thru-tough love. that was the way i was brought up and had to literally wipe the slate clean and undo all the learned behavior patterns.took me years but did manage to do it.feels wonderful too!! my relatives only knew what they we're taught and they passed it on down.i understand all that but i had to learn to make my own choices and decisions..some we're not very good ones but i have learnt from it.

"when you look out a different window,you have another view".heavenletters

want to write about article of a year ago feb2010 steve rother lightworker.com "now have fluctuating magnetic fields.this is part of what your feeling.its temporary situation probably last only few yrs but will mess alot of your electronics on earth.until you learn how to ground your equipment in different way" humans are very smart and im sure will learn quickly. on history channel says magnetic fields are flip-floping and getting ready to reverse..all this affects our nervous system.(causes us to have up and down emotions)like a rollercoaster.im sure without a doubt these magnetic fields affects earth and everything on it..

revelations 21:4 god shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and there shall be no more death.neither sorrow nor crying.neither shall be anymore pain.for the former things have passed away.

"through activation of the spiritual-heart that we pass into a whole new world of expansion and joy". owen waters

keep smiling and many blessings!! marylen

"an awakening is the discovery and liberation of our true identity"aruna byers newsletter

2011-01-05T09:12:00.000-08:00

"You're learning to trust. TRUST:to rely upon spirit totally". pointsofpower.com.au

spirit is never to late....before ye call i have answered.

these are things i have felt in my downtime and usure at the time what was happening.it took me years of reading and exploring to figure out what i was going through:i dont feel like myself.i feel different.sometimes i feel all alone like God has abandoned me.i felt like no one cared.sometimes i just dont understand other people.they're so insensitive.sometimes i felt betrayed and lost and no goal's on the agenda..i would cry for no reason. all this had a reason but didnt truly understand at the time.these we're inner workings and clearing's and i was being transformed !!

"welcome to transformation" we're not who we think we are..i had to just let go and trust the process!! on the path of spiritual awakening things are not always as they seem.

in 2001 i just stepped off into the unknown.i was scared to death but i knew life couldn't go on the way it was.i was at a crossroads and unsure which way to go.i felt i had completed what i had come here to do.i had a fullness from the material world and it was inner timeclock saying its time for inner world,so i closed my eyes and just trusted that i would grow wings as i stepped into the unknown....here i am today writing about all the inner changes that took place and im learning to smile and dance again..LOL today i have much wisdom from my experiences and my heart's full and overflowing with love of self and love for all life.

what's close to my heart in sharing my happiness is like a buffet of joy!!

"get out your own way and stay there". so spirit can do the guiding..

was reading a newsletter from james tyberonn here goes few sentences which thought was interesting!! next 2yrs. 2011-2012 the love of power will begin to be displaced by the power of love.its already in motion.the transformation occurs on heart at a time inside each of you".jan2011

here's one my favorite verses in the bible. 1corinthians 15:51-52 i show you a mystery "we shall all be changed in a moment in a twinkling of an eye".

i know something big is on the horizon because i can feel the excitment of it..thank God i have learned to feel again LOL.. we're going back to full consciousness (more God like) 2012-2013 will be the line of demarcation.a new cycle of life(heart based)will commence..

"the universe is one vast symbol of God".thomas carlyle

"rise to a new,higher level but to get there we must transform in a different way.material structures will change from this we will have the opportunity to be more human". 13moon.com

want to say Happy New Year everyone!! hope 2011 be be less bumpy than last few yrs. a buffet of love to all of you..marylen

"all the doors that lead inward to the sacred peace of the most high are doors outwards-out of self.out of smallness.out of wrong".George mcDonald

2010-11-08T05:43:00.000-08:00

Cosmic wisdom is encoded in your DNA and cells !!

Go Cosmic and get out of your own way so spirit can flow easily and effortlessly.spirit will do all the work if you rid yourselfof all emotional stuff from the past,spirit will do the rest."do your best and leave the rest to God".took me long time but have learn to just be! im content now after all those years of just spinning my tires and going nowhere fast.(there's a peace of God that surpasses all understanding) finally found that peace and loving it LOL.

its all the sweet,simple things in life that makes life worthwhile.I try to keep my head from the outside world of illusion and keep it on the inside world. there where all the magic lies.its our connection to the most high.all the meaning of life lies in the inside world and thru-our clean slate of emotions.i spent so many yrs felt like i was up against a dark wall and couldn't find the door.it was a dark time in my life.im sure i could label it the "dark night of the soul" seems so appropriate to call it that.i use to ask all the time "God what am i going thru-kept getting same answer"cleansing".that took many yrs.... i told my sister"i have been processed".lol

what im getting at all this increases our frequency and when we do that(i know it takes yrs) but nothing happens in a minute.when we change our frequency everything changes.nothing can remain the same one we increase of frequency.our thought patterns change.i have become so hper-sensitive that everything effects me now on a deep level.....when we change our frequency all our stuff(houses,clothes,cars,boats,electric devices) are not going to matter anymore.this is how humans define themselves by the stuff they own.those things will be of no impotance anymore.

i simplified my life and so much nicer and stressfree(almost)LOL

earth's changing therefore humans are too! we must respect and honor earth therefore our lives will be much sweeter and less complicated.i look forward with all my heart to the shift into 2012.will be wonderful time to be on earth !!

creating a tide of change that will lead us to our next shoreline.anytime we can begin anew!!

what to update:been practing the "filter method" from steve rother theory and its seems to help alot.i surround myself with the filter each morn when i get up..helps alot with the anxiety.

this last blog until after the holidays.thanksgiving around the corner and then xmas so will be busy for awhile. want to wish everyone Happy Holidays and see you jan2011 until then keep smiling and many blessings too!! love marylen

"in every painful situation is concealed a deeper good and within every disaster is contained the Seed of Grace".eckhart tolle

2010-10-01T07:40:00.000-07:00

"you're never wrong when something feels right(its your intuition)".

last week i rec'd another enerydownload.in my nervous system and it lite me up like a Neon Flashing Sign.i wasnt sure i could keep on getting these downloads as they are so intense.this download threw my emotions out into space so to speak.i cried and i couldnt sleep kept waking up with intense anxiety and caused my irritable bowel to go into overdrive.im searching for answers on all these shifts and changes myself. what i have come up with from all i've read and using my intuition.. this is the Great purification spoken by the hopi indians and also the cherokee.in the end times earth will have birth pains.(the bible)

"solitude is the place of purification".martin burber

i have been going through this cleasing process since about yr.2000 its still not getting any easier for me.although i still try to remain in quiet mode and surrender to it.seems easier that way.(i told God i want to rewrite my pre-life contract because i wrote it way to hard) but guess there's no going back now only forward.a song keeps coming to mind by alison krauss"been to the mountain left my tracks in the snow and i've taken the pain no girl should in endure".

"as the soul ceases to be"self-regarding"in its activities,it becomes "God-regarding".edward leen

i rec'd sept2010 channeling from steve rother lightworker.com and im going to keep practicing light grounding to help me with these intense downloads into my nervous system.says"Envision that you have a filter around you to protect you from the magnetic shifting".the ground is shifting beneath your feet.magnetic radiation will hit humans emotionally when a solar flare erupts.CME (coronal mass ejection)every 12yrs the sun goes through another cycle(sun is helping earth to change).i thought this article was very informative and im going to keep practicing with the filter theory !!

when you heal earth you heal yourself !!

our main reason for being on earth at this time is to help earth raise its vibration and in the process we raise our own.i know going through all these changes along with earth i have become Hypersensitive.very unlike me usually just the opposite.i put this stuff out there for others.i wish i would have known way back what i was going through.it became a maze and i had great difficulty trying to find my way but i have made it finally.i do like writing its a form of creative expression for me and hopefully help others with it !!

"the reason why many are still troubled-still seeking-still making little forward progress is because they haven't come to the end of themselves.we're still trying to give order's and interferring with God's work within us".aiden wilson 1897-1963

enough writing for today!! keep smiling and many blessings!! love marylen

"people are starving all over the world but this country is starving spiritually".mother theresa

2010-09-07T07:17:00.000-07:00

I never cease to be amazed at the myriad ways you speak to me,words from a book,lyrics of a song.a note from a friend,the rustle of the wind blown leaves on the lawn.renaissance unity

if we listen to our own inner guidance system it will lead the way for us because it comes from a higher order.just trust it. its not things and stuff that makes us human's happy its our deepest emotions that are connected to the most high.I appreciate all life's wonder's. all the little things are important to me.

my inner shaman(healing)wants to come out.i spent number of yrs.emptying myself of old worn out thought patterns and shedding my old-skin like a snake.then life can turn and renew itself. just trust the process!!

"you're inner-self is your soul,the part of you which lives forever.the part of you that's always there to help,guide and protect you.within the inner soul burn's the flame which connects you to the entire cosmos of creation".owen waters

aug2010 in the middle of the night i could hear intense buzzing in my ear's.was really loud ! it was a download into my nervous system causing my neck to be sore,also caused high emotion and anxiety.when i get this it lasts for days i went into a fog and i have trouble concentrating.i ran around for several days with this anxiety mode and in middle of the for many night this anxiety just would'nt go away.i know i have to decipher these emotions but haven't foot-hole on them.i do have inner peace within but these episode's just floor me because i cant as of yet figure them out.still working on that. i was always a person of high-energy and enthusiam but going through this process to carry more light has in a good-way caused me to be low-key and quiet.(which not like me)LOL.

"you have to hush the heart and bid all your senses be still before you can attuned to receive heaven's music".daily meditation

"God brings men into deep waters not to drown them,but to cleanse them".aughey

"if you make friends with yourself,you'll never have to be alone".maxwell maltz

not alot to write about lately.its been quiet all through the holiday just passed.i do my best to stay away from stressful situations out there in the world.i cannot take stress in my life anymore or anxiety.i do alot of reading and try to absorp all i read..and do my best to stay in a quiet non-drama mode. i havent had any collective dreams lately,will put them out there as soon as i do!!!

keep smiling and keep love in your heart !! love marylen

"if you want the universe to send you a sign tell it that you are ready and willing to accept its guidance." Daily Om

2010-08-10T07:01:00.000-07:00

"if i rest i rust" martin luther

I do walk in faith.i cant see faith but nevertheless its there.one cant see gamma rays,microwaves,xray,radio waves and so on but they're there.

I left the outside whirl and waited years for the seed inside me to awaken and i feel like a new fledling ready to flap my little wings.along with millions of other that went and going through the same process.

psalm 91:11 I give my angels charge over thee to keep thee in all thy ways.king james bible

this is my new life now and i feel fulfilled in my heart-emotions.i spent 56yrs of my life living the material world.(the american dream).material things are short lived.. we come into this world with big V for void and we fill it with stuff.new cars and houses lots clothes,boats and so on thinking that it will makes us happy.thank God thru-all my endeavors.. i finally came to my senses !!

we're suffering spiritually because happiness comes through the heart..as i got older i started pour over my life and make many changes..emotionally i feel wonderful.i feel like i have made it.was a tough climb but here i am.i use to say back in the 80's "i feel like i have climbed a mountain backward". LOL ( didnt know what a mountain of self was back then.just knew inside that was the way i felt.)

never realizing that there was a spiritual world and all i had to do to access it was to go within.there i feel no restrictions and or limitations.there's where freedom lies.the reason i put this stuff out there for other's.i felt hopeless for so long and now im coming into my own. this things i went thru-a process to get where im at now.im getting goose-bumps talking straight from the heart.when you live thru-the heart of love you activate the love frequency (a feeling). im retired now but i promised God i would put this stuff out there for others.there goes the goose-bumps again LOL.

while i was down for almost 10yrs used my time constructively.have 4-5 thousand notes i have kept.someday will put it into a book.

i just want to add that i now listen to my own guidance system comes from spirit also my writing come through my experiences in life..might add i certainly have been thru-alot.there goes the goose bumps again LOL. i havent channeled any messages yet but hope to.last 10 yrs most spent on my own healing as i thought for sure i was going to die.as my immune system went down because of the c.fatigue syn. but miraclously i made it back...stronger !!

want to Quote:White Eagle "say little,love much,judge no-one.give everything away and keep on keepin on".

also want to Quote:albert einstein"out of clutter,find simplicity from discord,find harmony.in the middle of difficulty lies opportunity".

keep smiling and keep love in your heart..love marylen

Thru-solitary seeking and introspection,will come inner meaning !!

2010-07-13T12:23:00.000-07:00

"true intelligence operates silently.stillness is where creativity and solutions to problems are found".eckhart tolle

one of my emails from yesterday says:UPDATE:Solar eclipse complete.earthquakes will follow..Earth changes media

solar eclipse came and went didnt notice any differnce except alittle inner nervousness but guess only time will tell.

i do watch the skies for signs of end times like it says in bible (prophecies of armageddon will seem to be coming to fulfillment)mike quinsey

Im looking forward to 2012 where we drop the old ways of doing things and we rise up into higher dimension,where love will prevail "so above so below".

i believe the end times mean end of the 3rd dimension consciousness way of thinking.we will be going into higher consciousness or full consciousness(means more God like)

i get alot of info from dreams which i have many dream journals and some the dreams are a collective means all> one dream about a year ago showed me that masses of people were waiting on 3-lane highway in their vehicles and they were all merging into one lane..was like a road block they were waiting to go..this was a collective dream they were waiting for the spiritual green lite...spritual freedom. the dream was so awesome!!

this is a dream from early this morn and i wrote it down right away so i dont forget it.(july15-10)this is a collective dream from the masses: i seen alot of vehicles on the road and some were off to the side of the road broke down.one vehicle was trying to get his car started over and over he tried.car and vehicle represent mankind)his body just wouldnt start and another car had his wheels turn to get over on the shoulder of the road.this dream represents the next wave of the masses and i was following in my vehicle behind trying to direct and help repair their vehicle.i have been dreaming in symbols for quiet some time now.i feel i need to put this stuff out there because its about others as well.my body or vehicle started stalling about yr.2000 and by 2001 i felt like it no longer start.i had to leave the outsie world and go within but that what its all about anyway.our connection to source !!

i believe 2012 will usher in spirtual freedom and the old ways will fall-away. new ways of thinking and acting will prevail.

life's short and precious and i dont want to waste any of it and going to spend rest of my life doing what i enjoy.spent most my life working and living in stress.never knew there was any other way... now i know finally !!

only thing i desire from this day forward is a simple life rooted firmly in nature. this my Quote:

also believe if your honest with yourself you are honest with the world !!

i believe walking in nature is my direct connection with God !!

i believe best things in life are free like a good cup of coffee and a good friendship.who could ask for anything more..my quote

i believe its in my best interest to stay in rapport with source.there i find much guidance and love !!

enough writing for today keep smiling and keep love in your heart...!! love marylen

"the quieter you become the more you can hear". Ram Das

2010-06-13T11:07:00.000-07:00

"look within.the secret is inside".Hui-neg

not much going on these days in fact its really quiet.everything around me seems to be at standstill and im not sure if thats good or bad !! i have this morn been going thru-alot of notes that i have wrote since i have had this fatigue. i cannot believe all the deep(heart deep material)i have wrote.i spent most my life in carnal based thinking.my thinking at the time.thought that was the way life was suppose to be...BOY was i wrong!! i was on my knee's at 56yrs and i couldn't get up.i was so broken from life's pitfalls and negative circumstances that i had no control over.so..............

i left it all behind.got rid of everything and kept the bare minimum to live on.gave away most my clothes as they reminded me of my job i quit of 20yrs and most my furniture and i never looked back just kept truckin !!

to pursue something deeper.my spiritual growth or should i say unfolding of the soul and im certainly not sorry i chose that path.now im guided by my soul and ready for the next step in evolution.

i drive backward with devine guidance.i had this dream aleast 2 times about driving my car(vehicle) in reverse.in one dream i thought you know if i turn my car around the right way i can go faster.takes much longer to get there driving backward. i think the dream means there's no short-cuts.just devine guidance and trusting without looking!! hooooooray figured that dream out.LOL

quote:vb brown "when you're reluctant to change,think of the beauty of autumn".

MY Quietude "ROCKS" lol

i feel i have grown so much in past few yrs.its truly a good feeling and i want to write you a poem i wrote several yrs back.my kids probably laugh because i never had in poetry in me LOL
here goes:

poetry i wrote in 2006

My soul has set me free to be the person i was intended to be!

you are creative and rightly so.

you're impurties have been pounded out-anger-dishonesty-unloyalty.they have all been purged.

now you represent me,nice and shiny and renewed.

i now stand before god to claim my kingdom that was intended for me,because you see God has set me free to be the devine person i was intended to be.....

the void in my life has been filled with the beautiful ,awesome spirit of the kingdom !! the end

"your lantern must first be lit before you start swinging".

next week june 21st summer solstice mabey have more news by then.like i said really quiet at the moment except for the all the daily catastrophe's in the news.all those news stories are heartbreaking and i sure can feel for all those people. God bless'em !!

keep love in your heart and keep smiling always love marylen

everything on this earth matters! if it didnt matter we wouldnt be here !!

2010-05-19T14:45:00.000-07:00

im getting the mindset of 2012 thinking.total peace for our planet no more wars.no more people fighting people in everyday life.a mindset of peace and calm for the planet.if everyone would become peaceful then war would not exist..

this earth deserves so much more respect than she gets.i walk at the park by my house almost everyday and i cant believe how much trash that people just throw around and there's trash receptacles all around. the park's free and the guys that work there doing maintenance have to go around cleaning up after people.humanity needs to get in alignment with nature and the cosmo's start accepting responsibility and accountability for their own being and stop shifting the blame to others.we must honor earth and ourselves to rise up and be who we truly are Devine children of the most high.....

we are all being awakened to collectively to raise up the planets vibration.our etheric egg that surrounds us getting ready to pop. start crackin open and we all will be little fledlings(young and inexperieced) we will be flapping of tiny little wings LOL.we are ending the old and new beginnings simultaneously.its like anxiety and exhilaration.relief the old worn out ways are ending and excited,anticipation of the new beginnings..

we must all trust our inner child like faith and believe with you heart and trust our inner guidance system steer us in the direction we need to go.

quote:Ralph waldo Emerson"were very near to greatness one step and were safe.can we not take the leap".

my c.fatigue syn.alot,i mean alot better now only been close to ten yrs.lol the symptoms are fading fast and i feel so much better now and my life has more meaning.i spent many-many yrs in the wilderness(figure of speech) but i did learn so more than i ever knew possible.i learn where my heart really is...life's not about stuff..money cant buy happiness because happiness come thru-the heart.we humans are emotional beings.the wilderness taught me to be humble and to have attitude of gratitude.be grateful each day for something.each night before bed i count my blessings.im 65yrs and i made it this far LOL.im very grateful for that!!

I belive experiences in life will turn into wisdom later in life.

"strange as it may seem to you there exists a mystic power thats able to transform your life so thoroughly so radically so completely that when the process is completed your own friends would hardly recognize you".Dr.emmet fox

thank you guys for listening today.many blessings!! love marylen

For all those years you have protected the seed.its time to become the beautiful flower ! stephen c.paul

2010-05-02T12:12:00.000-07:00

Time to blossom ! whole lot of eggs are going to start crackin. its time to stand up and be what we all came here to be! time to shine our divine light!

magical awakening can arise out of you.let go of the illusions and unfulfilled dreams and all the drama of life and focus on nature and all its beauty.just be content in the simple life and do what you can and leave the rest to God!

all these earth changes causing the human race alot of anxiety.i have been having alot trouble sleeping at night because of the anxiety.feels alot like stress. i try to stay inside alot but guess watch to much news LOL.each day i get up out bed i think what next? seems like each new day another catastrophe it all plays on my nerves.i do my best to stay grounded in nature.helps me alot.no matter how much i try to give up the outside world still have connections to it. "hope is the parent of faith".cyrus a.bartol

"what lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us".Ralph waldo Emerson

right now I open myself to new perspective on my life.i have gone as far as i can with my old thinking and living.im ready and willing to embrace my soul's next step in evolution.i shall travel the path that spirit illuminates before me.

"where there's Great Love there are always miracles".willa cather

keep a smile on your face and a song in your heart.blessings marylen

Quote:wm.ernest henley "I am the master of my fate:I am the captain of my soul".

2010-04-18T10:26:00.000-07:00

i am a pilgrim on a spiritual journey.renaissance unity.

i felt back in 2001 that i was pregnant with new life-not in a physical sense.i even gain weight especially around my stomach area just like in real pregnancy ! talk to several people with fibromyalgia and they said same thing happen to them.

i was pregnant in a spiritual sense this process took almost 10yrs.now i feel like im getting ready to give birth to a new life or a new creativity.

our planet getting ready to give birth..a new cycles starts dec.2012. we be miraclous to be reborn into a brand new way of being.we will have a higher calling we will listen to our own higher guidance system. life will turn and renew itself.all humanity will have to take responsibility and accountability for own actions.

the earth and all her inhabitants will celebrate anew life a new way of thinking and acting.letting go of the past and all of its negavity.we all are here to hold light and love and healing for our beloved planet called mother earth.she is so awesomely beautiful..........im waiting patiently for the egg to crack !!!

earth is having birth pains simply watch the sky for signs.(bible)

jesus called the being"born anew"which means giving birth to the spiritual self of you.this requires placing yourself in alignment with the christ of your being so that you can take directions from a "higher source".as you do so,you discover that you can rely on inner-dependence and your life begin's a process of transformation.....Ron Scott

I make a conscious decision to live from the perfect self that lives within me...renaissance unity

just want to say im finally getting use to my new pc.still alot to learn as each pc alittle different.anyway so delighted to be back in the internet action (fun) LOL

takecare and keep your light burning bright !! love marylen

All i can say "whole lot shaking going on,"

2010-04-11T07:48:00.000-07:00

I'm finally back on internet from what seems like a nightmare.i had dail-up internet for almost 11yrs and the company did away with it and i had to go to high speed internet.which means you have to have special modem kit which was suppose to be mailed to me thru-UPS that was never ordered. guess the girl that took the order forgot to submit it.must be mercury retrograde starting early LOL. so i spent countless hours with tech.support waiting mostly on hold.each tech.support assistant telling me different story one saying you'll rec' the part on the day of installation. Nota.never rec'd. called again another tech.agent saying dont see that part was ever ordered.called again and again LOL.finally went and bought my own part and it cost me 80.00 which the company suppose to send me gift card for the reinburse me.then i had to set up and another pc system which not to difficult except it dosent work like my old pc.had alittle bit of difficulty with that.

this whole ordeal with pc and high speed internet just stressed me out to the max. last night first night slept well in long time. so

anyway back on line "thank you God".

most people and family and friends couldn't help.my son says he's not pc savvy.so my point is if im to get back on line once again going to have to do this myself. guess what:

im amazed that i was able to put it all together and hook up to internet myself. never knew had this in me.LOL

anyway want to say im still alive and back on line.such a good feeling!!

love and light and many blessing too!! love marylen

Honor your adversities for out of them will come light !

2010-03-09T11:46:00.000-08:00

i found these notes this morn that i wrote back in feb.2004 and i had forgot about writing them. reading it after several yrs. brought tears to my eyes !

here goes: God lift me up. I have been down way to long.I have learned alot along my spiritual path. you taught me so well ! I had to be broken by you so that i would be able to see the light shine brighter into all area's of my life. I know now that spiritual process developes over time.its a mountain that we all must climb to the top.then we are graced with your goodness.the top of a mountain same as a bridge in my view.the bridge put's us at a distance from our past-that's it no longer important only that we have learn from it and use it as examples. the bridge also important for contemplating our future.the latter house house is grater than the former house.we are the head not the tail. the bible
my life has been a struggle but also have been blessed and i wouldn't trade my life for anything.im rich within spirit.

I will walk in faith and confess the word with my mouth.I will listen with (not my head) but with my heart.I will use compassion and discard judgements and criticism's. I will do mental housecleaning and discard what's old and no longer work's in my life.i will not manipulate or be around any manipulater's.
I choose joy and happiness to be my mindset for the remainder of my life here on earth !!

Quote:wm.a.ward "adversity causes some men to break; others to break records."

Quote:helen keller"keep your face to the sun and you'll never see your shadow".

Quote:marianne williamson "were not done until God ring's the bell".

wish me luck im going to be installing another pc its not new but much newer than this one.this pc freezes and crashes alot and im just tired of dealing with it.i probably wont be blogging for 2-3 weeks until everything back in order!

love and light and many blessings too! marylen

Quote: margaret fuller "If you have knowledge let others light their candle in it".

2010-03-02T10:36:00.000-08:00

I found this small article in a magazine from 2001
i was browsing through recently.It makes so much sense .give thanks with thanksgiving.we all have so much to be thankful for-so much in our lives we just take for granted.no one signed this little article its by anonymous.here goes:

"counting your blessings.if you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over head and a place to sleep....you are richer than seventy-five percent of the world.
if you have money in the bank or in your wallet and spare change in a dish someplace....you are among the top eight percent of the worlds wealthy.
if you woke up this morning with more health than illness....you are more blessed than the million that will not survive this week.
if you never experienced the danger of battle,the lonliness of imprisonment.the agony of torture or the pangs of starvation.....you are ahead of 500million people in the world.
if you attend a church meeting or spiritual gathering without fear of harassment,arrest,torture or death...you are more blessed than 3 billion people in the world.
if your parents are still alive and still married...you are very rare,even in the united states.
if you read this message you are more blessed than over 2 billion people in the world who cannot read at all.
if you hold someone's hand,hug them or even touch them on the shoulder..you are blessed because you can offer a healing touch.
if you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful....you are blessed because the majority can,but most do not.
now go forth and share your blessing with rest of the planet"...........anonymous

Quote: " Gratitude is the heart's memory" french proverb

with all the chaos and unpredictability of the planet at the moment we all need to stop a moment and just be thankful and grateful for all the goodness in our lives !!

proverbs 3:5 "lean not unto thine own understanding but trust in the lord with all thine heart".

Quote:"you cant stop the waves but you can learn to surf". unknown

love and light and many blessings to all of you ! marylen

the best thing you can give yourself is your time!!

2010-02-15T10:22:00.000-08:00

watch a funny movie!i watched this past weekend O'Brother where art thou. i had seen it several times before but i laugh myself silly everytime i see it.i mean its one of those belly laugh's..at my age i love simple things in life like a single rose.its the thought behind it that matters.love to laugh like a childish giggle.lol
i enjoy all the sweet and simple things like life's innocent pleasures..nature one of lifes simple pleasures,watch the little animals at play. "nature is our teacher".

my 7yr old grandaughter say to me "gramma how come i always have to give you kissssssssssses".LOL

life is like ice cream better enjoy it before it melts.

what im getting at : 2012 fast approaching.. there's many changes headed our way for the planet and all inhabitants... best thing to do stay in state of calm"the Lull".
we all need to accept the changes without question.just surrender to it.i did !

we all have a resvoir of inner strength.if we just keep life real simple and childish as possible we can get through all the changes easily and effortlessly.

i most likely will be writing most on this topic of 2012 because it ushers in a new beginning the old will be gone forever and we all be the "new human". hooooooray!!!

spiritual growth comes from within!! always trust your higher guidance and wisdom. I DO !!when i go up this morn i heard"the universe is fine tuning me to be a receiver".i think thats awesome!!!!!!!!!!

Quote:dan millman "always remember the real treasure is within".

You cant change the world but you can change how you look at the world.
keep light and love in your heart and many blessings ! marylen

that which you seek already within you!! (not sure where i found this quote !)

2010-01-25T11:13:00.000-08:00

i.m still reeling from those 2 last eclipses.they shook me to my core.i was so dizzy and nauseous and this lasted few days.my sister called me to tell me she felt funny and had to lay down.i know im very sensitive to the goings on in the cosmo's.from what i have been reading eclipses are electromagnetic shifts and affects everything on earth even the earthquake in Haiti.all our hearts around the world opened up to those people.all the out pouring compassion and assistance from around the world came pouring in.... pronto!!

next 3yrs going to be unpredictable with all the earth changes.was a show on history channel how the earth was made that says,the earth goes into a wobble every 20thousand yrs or so and the earth leans on its axis. that causes all kinds of earth changes now taking place....Hold onto your Hats.LOL earth and all her inhabitants have to adapt to all the new changes.

im actually wondering if what i have been going through with this c.fatigue syn.tired all the time is the LULL thats talk about in the bible.its suppose to come before the awakening. 2012 starts a new cycle.hope i will be awake by then lol.

also want to quote 1 corinthians 15:51-52 behold i shew you a mystery.you shall not all sleep but you shall be changed in a moment in a twinkling of an eye at the last trump for the trumpet shall sound and the dead shall raise and we shall all be changed.

also want to tell you what i heard from higher guidance and higher wisdom yesterday morn.sunday am when i was just waking up..."lend an ear to the voice of your heart". listen intently...thats all i heard upon waking...i guess i better pay more attention to dreams and waking state of being..

Quote:mark twain "always do right it will satisfy some people and astonish the rest".

love and light to all of you and many blessings too!! marylen

Quote:Buddha"if we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change".

Happy New Year everyone!!

2010-01-12T10:45:00.000-08:00

I have been basking in quietude after the holiday chaos.just been (a sigh of relief)everything back to normal.the phone hasn't even be ringing since christmas thats a major plus.always get alot of telemarketer calls mabey they're taking a long derserved rest LOL.
so i dont have awhole lot to blog about lately.still alittle tired from my chronic fatigue syn. admit i'm doing alot better each day that i can get thats peaceful and quiet and stress free, thats a real major,major plus.since i dont work anymore thats where all my stress and anxiety was coming from.now my life mostly stress-free because i returned to the simple life.have my life as simplified as possible. even in the bible states that one should live simple.i finally heeded the message LOL. simple works for me.

like to add a few Quotes as that what i love to do!! i find so much meaning in quotes.

this quote is mine!! the truth is sweet and simple!!

"listen to your dreams.they're the whispers of your heart telling you all you'll ever need to be happy". belva davis

"Gods my counselor". the bible book of Galations

"when you've lost everything you have what's left is everything you never had".flash cards on pointsof power.com/au

psalm 119:105 "thy lord is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path".

"those who cannot learn from the past are condemned to repeat it".george santayana

enough quotes for today but i have many-many more LOL. love and light to all of you!! takecare marylen

I'm a child of the universe and loved beyond measure !! marylen

2009-11-23T11:08:00.000-08:00

what im writing about today was taken from my note few weeks ago. here goes: i made a "Leap of faith" into the unknown this was early 2001..unsure of what i would encounter.i was so scared.. my whole body was tense with fear and i didnt know what to expect next. i was also use to an income wasnt alot but nevertheless it was an income and everything changed.
also use to going out with friends from work and had a nice social life at one time believe it or not and i was so scared to let go and float on the flow of the universe.
after my divorce had many relationships that didnt work out and i was carrying a whole load of should say hugh load of responsibility, rasing kids(younger ones) without child support and alot of my own unresolved emotional stuff. i just couldnt take it anymore i was in my 50's then and i surrendered to higher power! i let go and let God ! i wiped the slate clean..feel good about it all now...lol

im starting over again at 64yrs old.starting from scratch.gave most everything away as i felt i didnt need a bunch of stuff.all part of my emotional clearing.

i have cleared my emotional baggage and celluar memory and im starting to lose the weight i gained from going through all this emotional stuff.
my faith was strong and i just trusted in the process and let nature take it course and lots of walking in nature with lots of fresh air.love the fragrance of those pine trees. they make me feel very alive and wonderful..

the message i received from higher guidance and higher wisdom"i'm out of the loop".

Quote: "all Glory comes from daring to begin". eugene f.ware

also want to Quote:charles darwin "it's not the strongest of the species that survive,nor the most intelligent,but the ones most responsive to change".

i probably wont be blogging until jan 2010 going to be busy thru-holidays with family..stay safe and keep on smiling with eyes of your heart..Happy Holidays and many blessings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love all of you......marylen

simply be yourself.you're loved beyond measure by the universe!

2009-11-01T12:27:00.001-08:00

Quote:when a door opens walk thru-it.trust the door has opened for a reason and you have been guided to it.Daily Om
i watch my dreams for symbols. couple nights ago i was have dream that i found a baby.it wasnt a newborn was older mabey 2yrs old.baby was dirty in the dream so i pick it up and hugged it and wash and cleaned it up.bright shiny new baby and i sat it in baby chair on the porch.baby was so cute and clean.i was so proud of him.(guess it was a him)in the dream. i take it the dream meant i took my life and it was dirty and i cleaned it up and i was so proud of it after all my hard work.i get symbolic dream often and i go insane until i can figure them out.LOL
i seem to be a different person after my downtime of many yrs. i'm rising up a new person with honesty and integrity along with a new rewewed sense of self.i spent most of my life having no self esteem. i was doing self sabotage.took me many yrs to realize all this.i dropped all the self sabotage and illusions. . i surrendered. i have come along way from where i started.
im putting all this out there for others that are going through-same thing.
was it worth it? when i was going thru all those symptoms and the roller-coaster emotions i thought no not worth it.since most symptoms have passed im starting to see clearly and use my heart feeling center to do my thinking.yes it worth it now.i feel much better!!
whats the reward for for all this in my opinion? love frequency activation and love heals all.nature helps too!
i feel now that i have graduated to next rung of the ladder. when people tell me they going thru alot i always say: i feel for you been there done that.

just want to spend the rest of my life peace."there's a peace that surpasses all understanding". bible

Quote:I love the recklessness of faith 1st you leap then you grow wings.wm sloan coffin

dont forget to dance and smile everyday through-eyes of your heart...i do!!
blessings!!!!!marylen

Child like faith believe with your heart !

2009-09-10T08:41:00.000-07:00

this blog taken from my notes of 6am this morn
this has really been hard for me to keep a low profile and give up my social life as a social butterfly LOL.to withdraw from the outside world.i really had no life.went back to the basics and very simple life.
took me about 59yrs to make the trip from my head to my heart thinking and im so glad now i made the trip LOL.i have had 8yrs of downtime and its afforded my much spiritual growth. i wouldn't have been able to do it in the outside world with all the chaos and total busyness.i was so busy didnt know if i was coming or going.
my life now has taken on different meaning.i have more child like awe! i find almost everything amazingly funny.i watch america funniest video's sometimes and i sit there just cracking up.i laugh so hard last night i was crying.LOL
all the sweet little thing make me happy especially being out in nature. Quote:man must go back to nature for information.thomas paine(this probably my favorite quote 2nd time i have wrote it on here.)
i went into this downtime 8yrs ago kicking and screaming.i didnt want to leave my outside world of busyness of working and my social life but now im connected to my inner world.its infinite! its priceless!! all i can say as i look back on it was quiet an experience unlike anything i have ever experienced before.i rode emotional roller-coaster for long time but now my emotions have stabilized.thank God LOL.
Quote:let your heart guide you.it whispers so listen carefully.movie,land before time
p.s. was awake during the night again.when i dozed back off around 5am heard my higher self say "you are free now to go" guess that means im free to get back on the road again.been off road for few yrs and got little lazy,not really.until next time takecare much love and light.marylen

my cosmic process finally over only took about 10yrs

2009-07-30T12:47:00.000-07:00

Quote:Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over he became a"Butterfly".anonymous
in a dream couple days ago showed me that my process i went thru- with all the ascension symptoms are over..took forever it seems LOL.in the dream or nightmare which ever you want to call it.i was at get-together with friends and i left looking for freeway to get back home when i hit the freeway ramp(it was in a circle)to fast and i went flying over it into the abyss and i seen nothing and next thing i felt was sensation of peace. i take it the dream was symbolic.meant my old self was gone and there was peace.spiritual freedom...i have cried and cried since that dream of couple days ago.i cried so much because that long process of being sick with symptoms and chronic fatigue and irritable bowel syn.dizzyness and at times very severe.finally over....now will let my butterfly wings dry! i need much needed rest as i had insomnia the whole time.im just going to bask in nothingness and just be for next few months and let the universe carry me...i already had 2careers in my life and working for the universe past few yrs makes it 3 and im very tired...sending everyone love and light..marylen
Quote: another quote LOL "the worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself".mark twain

were all in the same boat we just have different paddles!

2009-07-05T10:57:00.000-07:00

i havent been blogging lately and nothing really going on.its quiet except for my pc froze and crashed yesterday on 4th of july.that was little upsetting! just have felt out of sorts lately as they say.i guess it's part of the ascension process. i have learned to just take it a day at time and that seems to work well for me.i spent most my life living and planning for the future. now im happy just looking up at the star's and walking in nature and also watching little animals at play.i have learned alot from nature. animals just pure energy.they just do what what they do look for food.they're content.
i have learned to listen to my heart and inner voice of God and follow my inner guidance..works for me. until next time takecare and many blessings!!
if you seek happiness look inside your heart for answers. works everytime.marylen

simple life

2009-05-31T10:50:00.000-07:00

Quote:laura ingalls wilder"im beginning to learn its the sweet simple things in life which are the real ones after all."
i was able to rid myself of the stresses of life by going back to simple life.i gave up almost everything to do it.lots of rest and time in nature and now finally im on my way to wellness.just waiting for the green lite from the universe to tell me its time to move forward again.my downtime was so renewing.. it was a spiritual growth milestone. i dropped out of sight for a long time and i know my kids were worried about me . going thru-this process was a very humbling and mind blowing experience.it teach that the inner-world the most rewarding.there you connect with spirit and the universe. inner world infinite and outer world finite. now im attached to inner world and withdrew from outer..im so grateful for this process.never thought i could do it.the rough spots are over now and are fading fast from memory..lots of love and light!! marylen
other quote"man must go back to nature for information." thomas paine

im patiently still waiting

2009-05-14T14:24:00.000-07:00

i have been idle now for 8yrs and trusting that my life has a higher purpose.i feel im being called by the universe to go thru-this idle time process. there's been times i have been little more than ticked off...waiting for this process to end but im still there.i know from what i have been through that my nervous system has been rewired..it took real strength to get thru-that process.that process wasn't for the faint of heart thats for sure.i feel this year will be spiritual freedom because i seen it in a dream...many just like me that are waiting also seen it also in the same dream.
i have lived here almost 8yrs in my own little apartment,sanctuary and have devoted my time to writing in my journals and also doing alot of reading.lots of pc work too.
one thing for sure first time in my life i ever had time to myself.i did give up my social life and just about all my friends to be fully present in my inner world connection to source.
i do know i have a greater purpose in life just took all this time for me to be processed im sure!!
blessings!Marylen

Quote:carl jung"your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart"

love will take us thru-it

2009-04-30T11:59:00.000-07:00

I like to connect with others that are waiting for for this transition to occur! im talking about transition of 2012...the 26thousand yr cycle.i cant wait,im all excited.will be a new era indeed!!
one can call it the next step on the ladder rung or next step in evolution. my body has went thru-so many changes past few years.i had to quit my job of 20yrs because of stress-anxiety .went into chronic fatigue.i know from all the blogs and ascension material i have read something bigger going on .
i feel like im being processed from the universe. my heart center opened up to much more feeling and that's a great gift from the creator...i feel ! i spent most of my life not giving much attention to feeling just never had time to so.

im understanding more about my life now.all i have been thru-im not a victim.this was a set-up from the universe to bring me to this point of understanding!! im seeing more clarity now than ever before.

I love to Quote:"its never safe to look into the future with eyes of fear"Edward h.Harriman
blessings! love and light! marylen