I'm a child of the universe and loved beyond measure !! marylen

what im writing about today was taken from my note few weeks ago. here goes: i made a "Leap of faith" into the unknown this was early 2001..unsure of what i would encounter.i was so scared.. my whole body was tense with fear and i didnt know what to expect next. i was also use to an income wasnt alot but nevertheless it was an income and everything changed.
also use to going out with friends from work and had a nice social life at one time believe it or not and i was so scared to let go and float on the flow of the universe.
after my divorce had many relationships that didnt work out and i was carrying a whole load of should say hugh load of responsibility, rasing kids(younger ones) without child support and alot of my own unresolved emotional stuff. i just couldnt take it anymore i was in my 50's then and i surrendered to higher power! i let go and let God ! i wiped the slate clean..feel good about it all now...lol

im starting over again at 64yrs old.starting from scratch.gave most everything away as i felt i didnt need a bunch of stuff.all part of my emotional clearing.

i have cleared my emotional baggage and celluar memory and im starting to lose the weight i gained from going through all this emotional stuff.
my faith was strong and i just trusted in the process and let nature take it course and lots of walking in nature with lots of fresh air.love the fragrance of those pine trees. they make me feel very alive and wonderful..

the message i received from higher guidance and higher wisdom"i'm out of the loop".


Quote: "all Glory comes from daring to begin". eugene f.ware

also want to Quote:charles darwin "it's not the strongest of the species that survive,nor the most intelligent,but the ones most responsive to change".


i probably wont be blogging until jan 2010 going to be busy thru-holidays with family..stay safe and keep on smiling with eyes of your heart..Happy Holidays and many blessings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love all of you......marylen

simply be yourself.you're loved beyond measure by the universe!

Quote:when a door opens walk thru-it.trust the door has opened for a reason and you have been guided to it.Daily Om
i watch my dreams for symbols. couple nights ago i was have dream that i found a baby.it wasnt a newborn was older mabey 2yrs old.baby was dirty in the dream so i pick it up and hugged it and wash and cleaned it up.bright shiny new baby and i sat it in baby chair on the porch.baby was so cute and clean.i was so proud of him.(guess it was a him)in the dream. i take it the dream meant i took my life and it was dirty and i cleaned it up and i was so proud of it after all my hard work.i get symbolic dream often and i go insane until i can figure them out.LOL
i seem to be a different person after my downtime of many yrs. i'm rising up a new person with honesty and integrity along with a new rewewed sense of self.i spent most of my life having no self esteem. i was doing self sabotage.took me many yrs to realize all this.i dropped all the self sabotage and illusions. . i surrendered. i have come along way from where i started.
im putting all this out there for others that are going through-same thing.
was it worth it? when i was going thru all those symptoms and the roller-coaster emotions i thought no not worth it.since most symptoms have passed im starting to see clearly and use my heart feeling center to do my thinking.yes it worth it now.i feel much better!!
whats the reward for for all this in my opinion? love frequency activation and love heals all.nature helps too!
i feel now that i have graduated to next rung of the ladder. when people tell me they going thru alot i always say: i feel for you been there done that.

just want to spend the rest of my life peace."there's a peace that surpasses all understanding". bible

Quote:I love the recklessness of faith 1st you leap then you grow wings.wm sloan coffin

dont forget to dance and smile everyday through-eyes of your heart...i do!!
blessings!!!!!marylen