"we must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned so as to have the life that is awaiting us.the old skin has to be shed before the new one is to come".joseph campbell

"carlos barrios,from the eagle clan of the maya of guatemala.shares in regard to 2012:the world will not END.it will be transformed.everything will change.change is accelerating now and it will continue to accelerate.if the people of the earth can get to this 2012 date in good shape without having destroyed to much of the earth we will rise to a new higher level.

i'm looking thru-my notes of many yrs to get a topic i like to write about or should say what im passionate about and i didnt find a topic but my pen just seem to take-off on its own.what im passionate about about is spiritual growth.it comes from within.you can't get it from a church its already within you!! it comes from connecting to your inner source and not the outside world.i spent 56yrs of my life feeling empty inside like something was missing and i kept searching for fulfillment to fill up my void. i did do all things that i wanted to do,like have nice car and nice house and i always love to dress nice.i worked at big chain dept.store so i always had nice clothes for less.all that back then was very important to me but something was still missing.getting those goose bumps again writing this.LOL i did leave the outside world (i just step off into the unknown)i must have have inner-guidance to do this..i was scared to death and thought i lost my mind LOL.

i went to my inside world(all the magic lies there). my sister called me a hermit but i dont regret it at all now.i no longer have the emptyness and the void.its all filled.im more emotional now.back then my daughter said i had no feelings and now im hypersensitive. going thru-all this was a big transition for me because i had to leave my entire 56yrs of who i was "behind".was a big wake-up call for me.i left my friends and most of my family behind to enter "quietude".after a decade it finally finished.my cleasing process complete.i thought God was going to scrub me to death..LOL

i read someplace that it takes 12.8yrs to complete the process that i and so many others went through but its all worth it in the end.we have spiritual freedom.....AWE sigh of relief..

"the 4th world shall end soon and the 5th world will begin.this the elders everywhere know.the signs over many years have been fulfilled and so few are left".hopi prophecy

i was reading mike quinsey/salusa from sirius and i was awe-struck by what i was reading in an awesome way!!
you will have a number of new concepts to get use to in due course.bear in mind that in your new bodies you will not experience the frailties you do on earth and if ever in need of healingwill receive sound,light and color.therefore,medicine and drugs that are used now will have no place or be necessary.

always be in gratitude and love!! many blessing..marylen

"we are the one's we've been waiting for".Hopi nation

"bluestar signal's the beginning of a time of great purification".the Hopi

"new wobble of the earth.earth spinning one-thousand mile per hour right now.earth in a wobble somthing to worry about?no,its something to celebrate! we each have a unique signature just as earth does"..steve rother/the group

the more i read,im starting to feel good about the end of this cycle.i read on another website that the sun is neutralizing the radiation that coming into the planet.that's very good news..also read we're now in the process of adjusting to higher frequencies of electromagnetic light current's..we human's have come along way thru-all ups and downs and weather changes and whatever the universe slings at us and we have made it thru-all the turmoil.were here,we made it and now our etheric egg starting to crack and i know without a doubt we will be a butterfly!!

luke:21:25 there shall be signs in the sun and in the moon and in the stars and upon the earth distress of nations with perplexity.the sea and waves roaring..king james bible

God brought us to these changes and he'll bring us thru-it..without a scratch,i'm sure !!

our soul's journey upward:if we live through our heart brain we vibrate higher energy.our deep love for the universe radiates compassion for all life form's.we're all here to help each other our brothers and sisters of this planet.when i talk to people about all the changes happening all over,about ascension and raising our vibration,alot say Yea,right..i try to spread the word as to what we're going thru-as i went thru-it myself..i found out alot of people going through ascension symptoms but dont understand what's happening therefore they dont say anything as they think they'll be judge as off-their-rocker LOL
few years back at my daughter's college grad.i was talking to few of her guy friends about these thing just discussed and one the guys said:What Have You Been Drinking!!LOL oh well !! to each their own perspective...cant pressure people.they must learn for themselves.experience the best teacher.. "when the student is ready the teacher will appear".

i myself feel totally intergrated and emerged with the new energies and im ready to take my one foot out and stand in the new world.. i have said since the 1980's i feel like i walk in 2 worlds..so ready to just walk in the new and let the old fall away!!


sorry took me so long to write a blog..i just have been so busy lately..i dogsit for neigbor and baysit for my daughter and then there was mother's day!! to much for me as im starting to make my way back to middle-of the road energy..spent most my life being hyper and last 10yrs at snail's pace but now its happy medium.. i see with more clarity now than ever before..all these things i'm so grateful..love that heart based thinking..

many blessing!! love marylen

"when the soul becomes divine it becomes a diamond.reflecting the divine light and forming an aura of delicate tint's around itself.such is the perfect human soul;the human soul aspires toward perfection"peter deunov

"the only source of knowledge is experience"albert einstein

people need to live from a place of simple joys.leave stress behind.live from a place of heart based thinking.i was one of those who always analyzed everything thing to death.living to much from the outside world view point.then when i learnt to relax from not being able to do anything else because of c.fatigue syn.i started to look from a new perspective.from the inside heart based thinking.i discovered my own true feelings.when i grew up down south many yrs ago emotions weren't an option.at my age now its a true joy to live thru-the heart and my connection to the universe."its an honor". just took me long time to realize all this.to get out of my brain thinking and into my heart thinking.when i write these blog's its one big goose bump!! i do love writing as i have had many,many experiences!! thank you dear God as i have finally come to my sanity!! LOL

a part of us must die before another part can come to life.this is a natural and necessary..its painful,confusing and disorienting.these shifts thru-out our lives as humans.we must shed our old self to move up our spiritual ladder to our next level..the next step in evolution.
we must say goodbye to our bestfriend(ourselves).thats the hard part a part of yourself you have know all your life.(i used to cry all the time going thru-this part)..in order to take on a new spiritual identity we must let old self-go and step into who we really are our God selves. we will step into our big-shoes that have been sitting in the corner waiting for us to step into them.our etheric egg's are cracking and we're being transformed into our brand way of being.we're offspring of the most high..

it was such a struggle for me to get to this point.. as i look back all the painful growth and body symptoms i had to go thru-to get to this point.(as we all did)i was cuz-ing alot back then because of the pain LOL.its all starting to fade and alot and it's hard for me to recall but i did write it down for future reference.just in case.i did keep many,many journals thru-this transition.. . going up the next rung of the ladder.

i do honor my past now with love and respect.it has brought me to this realiztion in life and now i have the opportunity for rebirth and fresh new perspective.im in gratitude!!

"sometimes we need to lose everything we have in order to find everything we are" pointsof power.com.au

"the butterfly does not think like a caterpillar but the community of caterpillar's dont understand that". pointsof power.com.au

keep love in your heart and many blessings!! love marylen

"all nature is acting if it we're one organism.even people feel different during various seasons and some people get depressed in winter and fall in love in springtime.biochemically certain changes in your body corresponds to the movement of our planet.all of nature is a symphony and we're part of it".Deepak Chopra

simplicity is a keynote of my kingdom.choose simple things always. love and reverence .the humble and the simple.have only simple things here.your standards must never be the world's standards!! daily devotional


we're going into a bumpy-ride for next few yrs.like in said in my last post "this is the best of times and this is the worst of times".i feel the middle-east after all said and done will beome the peacemakers of the world.

endings and new beginnings simultaneously.before we get to the new beginning we go thru-a void.there anew creativity is born.there on a spiritual level we connect to all life.. i know as i went thru it.we will realize that we're much more then we ever thought !!

love frequency being activated one person at a time.i see so much more compassion in the world than ever before.you'll be flooded with feelings of love..this is the unfolding of the soul...finally.(took eon's to emerge)

"the human race will unify as a single circuit.solar and galactic sound transmissions will inundate the planetary field.a current charging both poles will race across the skies connecting the polar auroras in a single brillant flash".jose arguelles

"self-trust is the first secret of sucess".ralph waldo emerson

i have really been out of sorts lately.i been planning on writing this
blog since last week. i having foggy-thinking.havent had this in several yrs.also having alot of headaches and shooting pains in my left ear.im thinking this is from solar-flares(cme).im trying to stay calm and hopefully they'll disappear!! solar activity is know to affect the central nervous system and human consciousness,thats probably what's causing my anxiety especially middle of the night.im highly sensitive to all the elements out there.

luke 8:17 for nothing is secret,that shall not be made manifest:neither anything hid,that shall not be made known and come aboard...king james bible

"dont judge each-day by the harvest you reap,but by the seed's you plant".
robert louis stevenson

think i have wrote enough for today..keep smiling and many blessings!! love marylen

course in miracles states:nothing real can be threatened,nothing unreal exists.herein lies the peace of god !!

"2012 and beyond we will be directed in life by the soul".soulworks2012

Quote: white eagle"each one of you has been called.every individual soul has work to do.none can do the work of another.each must do his own work.therefore,we say,accept it,my child.accept the task laid before you and pray to the great spirit that you may not fail".

i found this message on mike quinsey and the galactic federation:what's interesting is that you were your own ancestors.hence,it explains why some of you feel strong pull toward certain civilizations.it can affect your taste and preferences even today.
i believe this to be true as i have had dreams of so many different places in the past.my past lives seem to be coming to the fore in this lifetime.i get so much info through dreams as im still crying this morn because of dream early this morn.a prohetic dream
im hoping this dream isn't real but way i felt emotionally im sure its very real..its about a good friends dog.she's one yr old now.will update this dream in the future now im still crying.........have bad headache from the crying..do we human's have to be so emotional?? LOL

these two quotes are from julie diamondlightworld.com"ascension is really expansion,its expansion of self in all dimension's and direction's.you will live from the soul as a sovereign,divine being in human form". "your old auric field is literally being fried and requires a new structural architecture to enable you to benefit from the enhanced energies".

looks like 2012 changes coming in fast.making my head spin LOL.i read somewhere cant remember where that these are the "best of time and the worst of times".i think people will have diffulty in letting go of the old familiar ways of life and same way of doing things.my relative's are like that they learnt the hard way thru-tough love. that was the way i was brought up and had to literally wipe the slate clean and undo all the learned behavior patterns.took me years but did manage to do it.feels wonderful too!! my relatives only knew what they we're taught and they passed it on down.i understand all that but i had to learn to make my own choices and decisions..some we're not very good ones but i have learnt from it.

"when you look out a different window,you have another view".heavenletters

want to write about article of a year ago feb2010 steve rother lightworker.com "now have fluctuating magnetic fields.this is part of what your feeling.its temporary situation probably last only few yrs but will mess alot of your electronics on earth.until you learn how to ground your equipment in different way" humans are very smart and im sure will learn quickly. on history channel says magnetic fields are flip-floping and getting ready to reverse..all this affects our nervous system.(causes us to have up and down emotions)like a rollercoaster.im sure without a doubt these magnetic fields affects earth and everything on it..

revelations 21:4 god shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and there shall be no more death.neither sorrow nor crying.neither shall be anymore pain.for the former things have passed away.

"through activation of the spiritual-heart that we pass into a whole new world of expansion and joy". owen waters

keep smiling and many blessings!! marylen

"an awakening is the discovery and liberation of our true identity"aruna byers newsletter

"You're learning to trust. TRUST:to rely upon spirit totally". pointsofpower.com.au

spirit is never to late....before ye call i have answered.

these are things i have felt in my downtime and usure at the time what was happening.it took me years of reading and exploring to figure out what i was going through:i dont feel like myself.i feel different.sometimes i feel all alone like God has abandoned me.i felt like no one cared.sometimes i just dont understand other people.they're so insensitive.sometimes i felt betrayed and lost and no goal's on the agenda..i would cry for no reason. all this had a reason but didnt truly understand at the time.these we're inner workings and clearing's and i was being transformed !!

"welcome to transformation" we're not who we think we are..i had to just let go and trust the process!! on the path of spiritual awakening things are not always as they seem.

in 2001 i just stepped off into the unknown.i was scared to death but i knew life couldn't go on the way it was.i was at a crossroads and unsure which way to go.i felt i had completed what i had come here to do.i had a fullness from the material world and it was inner timeclock saying its time for inner world,so i closed my eyes and just trusted that i would grow wings as i stepped into the unknown....here i am today writing about all the inner changes that took place and im learning to smile and dance again..LOL today i have much wisdom from my experiences and my heart's full and overflowing with love of self and love for all life.

what's close to my heart in sharing my happiness is like a buffet of joy!!

"get out your own way and stay there". so spirit can do the guiding..

was reading a newsletter from james tyberonn here goes few sentences which thought was interesting!! next 2yrs. 2011-2012 the love of power will begin to be displaced by the power of love.its already in motion.the transformation occurs on heart at a time inside each of you".jan2011

here's one my favorite verses in the bible. 1corinthians 15:51-52 i show you a mystery "we shall all be changed in a moment in a twinkling of an eye".

i know something big is on the horizon because i can feel the excitment of it..thank God i have learned to feel again LOL.. we're going back to full consciousness (more God like) 2012-2013 will be the line of demarcation.a new cycle of life(heart based)will commence..

"the universe is one vast symbol of God".thomas carlyle

"rise to a new,higher level but to get there we must transform in a different way.material structures will change from this we will have the opportunity to be more human". 13moon.com

want to say Happy New Year everyone!! hope 2011 be be less bumpy than last few yrs. a buffet of love to all of you..marylen

"all the doors that lead inward to the sacred peace of the most high are doors outwards-out of self.out of smallness.out of wrong".George mcDonald

Cosmic wisdom is encoded in your DNA and cells !!

Go Cosmic and get out of your own way so spirit can flow easily and effortlessly.spirit will do all the work if you rid yourselfof all emotional stuff from the past,spirit will do the rest."do your best and leave the rest to God".took me long time but have learn to just be! im content now after all those years of just spinning my tires and going nowhere fast.(there's a peace of God that surpasses all understanding) finally found that peace and loving it LOL.

its all the sweet,simple things in life that makes life worthwhile.I try to keep my head from the outside world of illusion and keep it on the inside world. there where all the magic lies.its our connection to the most high.all the meaning of life lies in the inside world and thru-our clean slate of emotions.i spent so many yrs felt like i was up against a dark wall and couldn't find the door.it was a dark time in my life.im sure i could label it the "dark night of the soul" seems so appropriate to call it that.i use to ask all the time "God what am i going thru-kept getting same answer"cleansing".that took many yrs.... i told my sister"i have been processed".lol

what im getting at all this increases our frequency and when we do that(i know it takes yrs) but nothing happens in a minute.when we change our frequency everything changes.nothing can remain the same one we increase of frequency.our thought patterns change.i have become so hper-sensitive that everything effects me now on a deep level.....when we change our frequency all our stuff(houses,clothes,cars,boats,electric devices) are not going to matter anymore.this is how humans define themselves by the stuff they own.those things will be of no impotance anymore.

i simplified my life and so much nicer and stressfree(almost)LOL

earth's changing therefore humans are too! we must respect and honor earth therefore our lives will be much sweeter and less complicated.i look forward with all my heart to the shift into 2012.will be wonderful time to be on earth !!

creating a tide of change that will lead us to our next shoreline.anytime we can begin anew!!

what to update:been practing the "filter method" from steve rother theory and its seems to help alot.i surround myself with the filter each morn when i get up..helps alot with the anxiety.


this last blog until after the holidays.thanksgiving around the corner and then xmas so will be busy for awhile. want to wish everyone Happy Holidays and see you jan2011 until then keep smiling and many blessings too!! love marylen