"in every painful situation is concealed a deeper good and within every disaster is contained the Seed of Grace".eckhart tolle

"you're never wrong when something feels right(its your intuition)".

last week i rec'd another enerydownload.in my nervous system and it lite me up like a Neon Flashing Sign.i wasnt sure i could keep on getting these downloads as they are so intense.this download threw my emotions out into space so to speak.i cried and i couldnt sleep kept waking up with intense anxiety and caused my irritable bowel to go into overdrive.im searching for answers on all these shifts and changes myself. what i have come up with from all i've read and using my intuition.. this is the Great purification spoken by the hopi indians and also the cherokee.in the end times earth will have birth pains.(the bible)

"solitude is the place of purification".martin burber

i have been going through this cleasing process since about yr.2000 its still not getting any easier for me.although i still try to remain in quiet mode and surrender to it.seems easier that way.(i told God i want to rewrite my pre-life contract because i wrote it way to hard) but guess there's no going back now only forward.a song keeps coming to mind by alison krauss"been to the mountain left my tracks in the snow and i've taken the pain no girl should in endure".

"as the soul ceases to be"self-regarding"in its activities,it becomes "God-regarding".edward leen

i rec'd sept2010 channeling from steve rother lightworker.com and im going to keep practicing light grounding to help me with these intense downloads into my nervous system.says"Envision that you have a filter around you to protect you from the magnetic shifting".the ground is shifting beneath your feet.magnetic radiation will hit humans emotionally when a solar flare erupts.CME (coronal mass ejection)every 12yrs the sun goes through another cycle(sun is helping earth to change).i thought this article was very informative and im going to keep practicing with the filter theory !!

when you heal earth you heal yourself !!

our main reason for being on earth at this time is to help earth raise its vibration and in the process we raise our own.i know going through all these changes along with earth i have become Hypersensitive.very unlike me usually just the opposite.i put this stuff out there for others.i wish i would have known way back what i was going through.it became a maze and i had great difficulty trying to find my way but i have made it finally.i do like writing its a form of creative expression for me and hopefully help others with it !!

"the reason why many are still troubled-still seeking-still making little forward progress is because they haven't come to the end of themselves.we're still trying to give order's and interferring with God's work within us".aiden wilson 1897-1963

enough writing for today!! keep smiling and many blessings!! love marylen

"people are starving all over the world but this country is starving spiritually".mother theresa

I never cease to be amazed at the myriad ways you speak to me,words from a book,lyrics of a song.a note from a friend,the rustle of the wind blown leaves on the lawn.renaissance unity

if we listen to our own inner guidance system it will lead the way for us because it comes from a higher order.just trust it. its not things and stuff that makes us human's happy its our deepest emotions that are connected to the most high.I appreciate all life's wonder's. all the little things are important to me.

my inner shaman(healing)wants to come out.i spent number of yrs.emptying myself of old worn out thought patterns and shedding my old-skin like a snake.then life can turn and renew itself. just trust the process!!

"you're inner-self is your soul,the part of you which lives forever.the part of you that's always there to help,guide and protect you.within the inner soul burn's the flame which connects you to the entire cosmos of creation".owen waters

aug2010 in the middle of the night i could hear intense buzzing in my ear's.was really loud ! it was a download into my nervous system causing my neck to be sore,also caused high emotion and anxiety.when i get this it lasts for days i went into a fog and i have trouble concentrating.i ran around for several days with this anxiety mode and in middle of the for many night this anxiety just would'nt go away.i know i have to decipher these emotions but haven't foot-hole on them.i do have inner peace within but these episode's just floor me because i cant as of yet figure them out.still working on that. i was always a person of high-energy and enthusiam but going through this process to carry more light has in a good-way caused me to be low-key and quiet.(which not like me)LOL.

"you have to hush the heart and bid all your senses be still before you can attuned to receive heaven's music".daily meditation

"God brings men into deep waters not to drown them,but to cleanse them".aughey

"if you make friends with yourself,you'll never have to be alone".maxwell maltz


not alot to write about lately.its been quiet all through the holiday just passed.i do my best to stay away from stressful situations out there in the world.i cannot take stress in my life anymore or anxiety.i do alot of reading and try to absorp all i read..and do my best to stay in a quiet non-drama mode. i havent had any collective dreams lately,will put them out there as soon as i do!!!

keep smiling and keep love in your heart !! love marylen

"if you want the universe to send you a sign tell it that you are ready and willing to accept its guidance." Daily Om

"if i rest i rust" martin luther

I do walk in faith.i cant see faith but nevertheless its there.one cant see gamma rays,microwaves,xray,radio waves and so on but they're there.

I left the outside whirl and waited years for the seed inside me to awaken and i feel like a new fledling ready to flap my little wings.along with millions of other that went and going through the same process.

psalm 91:11 I give my angels charge over thee to keep thee in all thy ways.king james bible

this is my new life now and i feel fulfilled in my heart-emotions.i spent 56yrs of my life living the material world.(the american dream).material things are short lived.. we come into this world with big V for void and we fill it with stuff.new cars and houses lots clothes,boats and so on thinking that it will makes us happy.thank God thru-all my endeavors.. i finally came to my senses !!

we're suffering spiritually because happiness comes through the heart..as i got older i started pour over my life and make many changes..emotionally i feel wonderful.i feel like i have made it.was a tough climb but here i am.i use to say back in the 80's "i feel like i have climbed a mountain backward". LOL ( didnt know what a mountain of self was back then.just knew inside that was the way i felt.)


never realizing that there was a spiritual world and all i had to do to access it was to go within.there i feel no restrictions and or limitations.there's where freedom lies.the reason i put this stuff out there for other's.i felt hopeless for so long and now im coming into my own. this things i went thru-a process to get where im at now.im getting goose-bumps talking straight from the heart.when you live thru-the heart of love you activate the love frequency (a feeling). im retired now but i promised God i would put this stuff out there for others.there goes the goose-bumps again LOL.

while i was down for almost 10yrs used my time constructively.have 4-5 thousand notes i have kept.someday will put it into a book.

i just want to add that i now listen to my own guidance system comes from spirit also my writing come through my experiences in life..might add i certainly have been thru-alot.there goes the goose bumps again LOL. i havent channeled any messages yet but hope to.last 10 yrs most spent on my own healing as i thought for sure i was going to die.as my immune system went down because of the c.fatigue syn. but miraclously i made it back...stronger !!

want to Quote:White Eagle "say little,love much,judge no-one.give everything away and keep on keepin on".

also want to Quote:albert einstein"out of clutter,find simplicity from discord,find harmony.in the middle of difficulty lies opportunity".

keep smiling and keep love in your heart..love marylen

Thru-solitary seeking and introspection,will come inner meaning !!

"true intelligence operates silently.stillness is where creativity and solutions to problems are found".eckhart tolle

one of my emails from yesterday says:UPDATE:Solar eclipse complete.earthquakes will follow..Earth changes media

solar eclipse came and went didnt notice any differnce except alittle inner nervousness but guess only time will tell.

i do watch the skies for signs of end times like it says in bible (prophecies of armageddon will seem to be coming to fulfillment)mike quinsey

Im looking forward to 2012 where we drop the old ways of doing things and we rise up into higher dimension,where love will prevail "so above so below".

i believe the end times mean end of the 3rd dimension consciousness way of thinking.we will be going into higher consciousness or full consciousness(means more God like)

i get alot of info from dreams which i have many dream journals and some the dreams are a collective means all> one dream about a year ago showed me that masses of people were waiting on 3-lane highway in their vehicles and they were all merging into one lane..was like a road block they were waiting to go..this was a collective dream they were waiting for the spiritual green lite...spritual freedom. the dream was so awesome!!

this is a dream from early this morn and i wrote it down right away so i dont forget it.(july15-10)this is a collective dream from the masses: i seen alot of vehicles on the road and some were off to the side of the road broke down.one vehicle was trying to get his car started over and over he tried.car and vehicle represent mankind)his body just wouldnt start and another car had his wheels turn to get over on the shoulder of the road.this dream represents the next wave of the masses and i was following in my vehicle behind trying to direct and help repair their vehicle.i have been dreaming in symbols for quiet some time now.i feel i need to put this stuff out there because its about others as well.my body or vehicle started stalling about yr.2000 and by 2001 i felt like it no longer start.i had to leave the outsie world and go within but that what its all about anyway.our connection to source !!

i believe 2012 will usher in spirtual freedom and the old ways will fall-away. new ways of thinking and acting will prevail.

life's short and precious and i dont want to waste any of it and going to spend rest of my life doing what i enjoy.spent most my life working and living in stress.never knew there was any other way... now i know finally !!

only thing i desire from this day forward is a simple life rooted firmly in nature. this my Quote:

also believe if your honest with yourself you are honest with the world !!

i believe walking in nature is my direct connection with God !!

i believe best things in life are free like a good cup of coffee and a good friendship.who could ask for anything more..my quote

i believe its in my best interest to stay in rapport with source.there i find much guidance and love !!

enough writing for today keep smiling and keep love in your heart...!! love marylen

"the quieter you become the more you can hear". Ram Das

"look within.the secret is inside".Hui-neg

not much going on these days in fact its really quiet.everything around me seems to be at standstill and im not sure if thats good or bad !! i have this morn been going thru-alot of notes that i have wrote since i have had this fatigue. i cannot believe all the deep(heart deep material)i have wrote.i spent most my life in carnal based thinking.my thinking at the time.thought that was the way life was suppose to be...BOY was i wrong!! i was on my knee's at 56yrs and i couldn't get up.i was so broken from life's pitfalls and negative circumstances that i had no control over.so..............

i left it all behind.got rid of everything and kept the bare minimum to live on.gave away most my clothes as they reminded me of my job i quit of 20yrs and most my furniture and i never looked back just kept truckin !!


to pursue something deeper.my spiritual growth or should i say unfolding of the soul and im certainly not sorry i chose that path.now im guided by my soul and ready for the next step in evolution.

i drive backward with devine guidance.i had this dream aleast 2 times about driving my car(vehicle) in reverse.in one dream i thought you know if i turn my car around the right way i can go faster.takes much longer to get there driving backward. i think the dream means there's no short-cuts.just devine guidance and trusting without looking!! hooooooray figured that dream out.LOL

quote:vb brown "when you're reluctant to change,think of the beauty of autumn".

MY Quietude "ROCKS" lol

i feel i have grown so much in past few yrs.its truly a good feeling and i want to write you a poem i wrote several yrs back.my kids probably laugh because i never had in poetry in me LOL
here goes:

poetry i wrote in 2006

My soul has set me free to be the person i was intended to be!

you are creative and rightly so.

you're impurties have been pounded out-anger-dishonesty-unloyalty.they have all been purged.

now you represent me,nice and shiny and renewed.

i now stand before god to claim my kingdom that was intended for me,because you see God has set me free to be the devine person i was intended to be.....

the void in my life has been filled with the beautiful ,awesome spirit of the kingdom !! the end


"your lantern must first be lit before you start swinging".


next week june 21st summer solstice mabey have more news by then.like i said really quiet at the moment except for the all the daily catastrophe's in the news.all those news stories are heartbreaking and i sure can feel for all those people. God bless'em !!


keep love in your heart and keep smiling always love marylen

everything on this earth matters! if it didnt matter we wouldnt be here !!

im getting the mindset of 2012 thinking.total peace for our planet no more wars.no more people fighting people in everyday life.a mindset of peace and calm for the planet.if everyone would become peaceful then war would not exist..

this earth deserves so much more respect than she gets.i walk at the park by my house almost everyday and i cant believe how much trash that people just throw around and there's trash receptacles all around. the park's free and the guys that work there doing maintenance have to go around cleaning up after people.humanity needs to get in alignment with nature and the cosmo's start accepting responsibility and accountability for their own being and stop shifting the blame to others.we must honor earth and ourselves to rise up and be who we truly are Devine children of the most high.....

we are all being awakened to collectively to raise up the planets vibration.our etheric egg that surrounds us getting ready to pop. start crackin open and we all will be little fledlings(young and inexperieced) we will be flapping of tiny little wings LOL.we are ending the old and new beginnings simultaneously.its like anxiety and exhilaration.relief the old worn out ways are ending and excited,anticipation of the new beginnings..

we must all trust our inner child like faith and believe with you heart and trust our inner guidance system steer us in the direction we need to go.

quote:Ralph waldo Emerson"were very near to greatness one step and were safe.can we not take the leap".

my c.fatigue syn.alot,i mean alot better now only been close to ten yrs.lol the symptoms are fading fast and i feel so much better now and my life has more meaning.i spent many-many yrs in the wilderness(figure of speech) but i did learn so more than i ever knew possible.i learn where my heart really is...life's not about stuff..money cant buy happiness because happiness come thru-the heart.we humans are emotional beings.the wilderness taught me to be humble and to have attitude of gratitude.be grateful each day for something.each night before bed i count my blessings.im 65yrs and i made it this far LOL.im very grateful for that!!

I belive experiences in life will turn into wisdom later in life.

"strange as it may seem to you there exists a mystic power thats able to transform your life so thoroughly so radically so completely that when the process is completed your own friends would hardly recognize you".Dr.emmet fox

thank you guys for listening today.many blessings!! love marylen

For all those years you have protected the seed.its time to become the beautiful flower ! stephen c.paul

Time to blossom ! whole lot of eggs are going to start crackin. its time to stand up and be what we all came here to be! time to shine our divine light!

magical awakening can arise out of you.let go of the illusions and unfulfilled dreams and all the drama of life and focus on nature and all its beauty.just be content in the simple life and do what you can and leave the rest to God!

all these earth changes causing the human race alot of anxiety.i have been having alot trouble sleeping at night because of the anxiety.feels alot like stress. i try to stay inside alot but guess watch to much news LOL.each day i get up out bed i think what next? seems like each new day another catastrophe it all plays on my nerves.i do my best to stay grounded in nature.helps me alot.no matter how much i try to give up the outside world still have connections to it. "hope is the parent of faith".cyrus a.bartol


"what lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us".Ralph waldo Emerson


right now I open myself to new perspective on my life.i have gone as far as i can with my old thinking and living.im ready and willing to embrace my soul's next step in evolution.i shall travel the path that spirit illuminates before me.


"where there's Great Love there are always miracles".willa cather

keep a smile on your face and a song in your heart.blessings marylen