Honor your adversities for out of them will come light !

i found these notes this morn that i wrote back in feb.2004 and i had forgot about writing them. reading it after several yrs. brought tears to my eyes !

here goes: God lift me up. I have been down way to long.I have learned alot along my spiritual path. you taught me so well ! I had to be broken by you so that i would be able to see the light shine brighter into all area's of my life. I know now that spiritual process developes over time.its a mountain that we all must climb to the top.then we are graced with your goodness.the top of a mountain same as a bridge in my view.the bridge put's us at a distance from our past-that's it no longer important only that we have learn from it and use it as examples. the bridge also important for contemplating our future.the latter house house is grater than the former house.we are the head not the tail. the bible
my life has been a struggle but also have been blessed and i wouldn't trade my life for anything.im rich within spirit.

I will walk in faith and confess the word with my mouth.I will listen with (not my head) but with my heart.I will use compassion and discard judgements and criticism's. I will do mental housecleaning and discard what's old and no longer work's in my life.i will not manipulate or be around any manipulater's.
I choose joy and happiness to be my mindset for the remainder of my life here on earth !!

Quote:wm.a.ward "adversity causes some men to break; others to break records."

Quote:helen keller"keep your face to the sun and you'll never see your shadow".

Quote:marianne williamson "were not done until God ring's the bell".

wish me luck im going to be installing another pc its not new but much newer than this one.this pc freezes and crashes alot and im just tired of dealing with it.i probably wont be blogging for 2-3 weeks until everything back in order!

love and light and many blessings too! marylen

Quote: margaret fuller "If you have knowledge let others light their candle in it".

I found this small article in a magazine from 2001
i was browsing through recently.It makes so much sense .give thanks with thanksgiving.we all have so much to be thankful for-so much in our lives we just take for granted.no one signed this little article its by anonymous.here goes:

"counting your blessings.if you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over head and a place to sleep....you are richer than seventy-five percent of the world.
if you have money in the bank or in your wallet and spare change in a dish someplace....you are among the top eight percent of the worlds wealthy.
if you woke up this morning with more health than illness....you are more blessed than the million that will not survive this week.
if you never experienced the danger of battle,the lonliness of imprisonment.the agony of torture or the pangs of starvation.....you are ahead of 500million people in the world.
if you attend a church meeting or spiritual gathering without fear of harassment,arrest,torture or death...you are more blessed than 3 billion people in the world.
if your parents are still alive and still married...you are very rare,even in the united states.
if you read this message you are more blessed than over 2 billion people in the world who cannot read at all.
if you hold someone's hand,hug them or even touch them on the shoulder..you are blessed because you can offer a healing touch.
if you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful....you are blessed because the majority can,but most do not.
now go forth and share your blessing with rest of the planet"...........anonymous

Quote: " Gratitude is the heart's memory" french proverb

with all the chaos and unpredictability of the planet at the moment we all need to stop a moment and just be thankful and grateful for all the goodness in our lives !!

proverbs 3:5 "lean not unto thine own understanding but trust in the lord with all thine heart".

Quote:"you cant stop the waves but you can learn to surf". unknown

love and light and many blessings to all of you ! marylen

the best thing you can give yourself is your time!!

watch a funny movie!i watched this past weekend O'Brother where art thou. i had seen it several times before but i laugh myself silly everytime i see it.i mean its one of those belly laugh's..at my age i love simple things in life like a single rose.its the thought behind it that matters.love to laugh like a childish giggle.lol
i enjoy all the sweet and simple things like life's innocent pleasures..nature one of lifes simple pleasures,watch the little animals at play. "nature is our teacher".

my 7yr old grandaughter say to me "gramma how come i always have to give you kissssssssssses".LOL

life is like ice cream better enjoy it before it melts.

what im getting at : 2012 fast approaching.. there's many changes headed our way for the planet and all inhabitants... best thing to do stay in state of calm"the Lull".
we all need to accept the changes without question.just surrender to it.i did !

we all have a resvoir of inner strength.if we just keep life real simple and childish as possible we can get through all the changes easily and effortlessly.

i most likely will be writing most on this topic of 2012 because it ushers in a new beginning the old will be gone forever and we all be the "new human". hooooooray!!!

spiritual growth comes from within!! always trust your higher guidance and wisdom. I DO !!when i go up this morn i heard"the universe is fine tuning me to be a receiver".i think thats awesome!!!!!!!!!!

Quote:dan millman "always remember the real treasure is within".


You cant change the world but you can change how you look at the world.
keep light and love in your heart and many blessings ! marylen

that which you seek already within you!! (not sure where i found this quote !)

i.m still reeling from those 2 last eclipses.they shook me to my core.i was so dizzy and nauseous and this lasted few days.my sister called me to tell me she felt funny and had to lay down.i know im very sensitive to the goings on in the cosmo's.from what i have been reading eclipses are electromagnetic shifts and affects everything on earth even the earthquake in Haiti.all our hearts around the world opened up to those people.all the out pouring compassion and assistance from around the world came pouring in.... pronto!!

next 3yrs going to be unpredictable with all the earth changes.was a show on history channel how the earth was made that says,the earth goes into a wobble every 20thousand yrs or so and the earth leans on its axis. that causes all kinds of earth changes now taking place....Hold onto your Hats.LOL earth and all her inhabitants have to adapt to all the new changes.

im actually wondering if what i have been going through with this c.fatigue syn.tired all the time is the LULL thats talk about in the bible.its suppose to come before the awakening. 2012 starts a new cycle.hope i will be awake by then lol.

also want to quote 1 corinthians 15:51-52 behold i shew you a mystery.you shall not all sleep but you shall be changed in a moment in a twinkling of an eye at the last trump for the trumpet shall sound and the dead shall raise and we shall all be changed.

also want to tell you what i heard from higher guidance and higher wisdom yesterday morn.sunday am when i was just waking up..."lend an ear to the voice of your heart". listen intently...thats all i heard upon waking...i guess i better pay more attention to dreams and waking state of being..


Quote:mark twain "always do right it will satisfy some people and astonish the rest".

love and light to all of you and many blessings too!! marylen

Quote:Buddha"if we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change".

Happy New Year everyone!!

I have been basking in quietude after the holiday chaos.just been (a sigh of relief)everything back to normal.the phone hasn't even be ringing since christmas thats a major plus.always get alot of telemarketer calls mabey they're taking a long derserved rest LOL.
so i dont have awhole lot to blog about lately.still alittle tired from my chronic fatigue syn. admit i'm doing alot better each day that i can get thats peaceful and quiet and stress free, thats a real major,major plus.since i dont work anymore thats where all my stress and anxiety was coming from.now my life mostly stress-free because i returned to the simple life.have my life as simplified as possible. even in the bible states that one should live simple.i finally heeded the message LOL. simple works for me.

like to add a few Quotes as that what i love to do!! i find so much meaning in quotes.


this quote is mine!! the truth is sweet and simple!!

"listen to your dreams.they're the whispers of your heart telling you all you'll ever need to be happy". belva davis

"Gods my counselor". the bible book of Galations

"when you've lost everything you have what's left is everything you never had".flash cards on pointsof power.com/au

psalm 119:105 "thy lord is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path".

"those who cannot learn from the past are condemned to repeat it".george santayana


enough quotes for today but i have many-many more LOL. love and light to all of you!! takecare marylen

I'm a child of the universe and loved beyond measure !! marylen

what im writing about today was taken from my note few weeks ago. here goes: i made a "Leap of faith" into the unknown this was early 2001..unsure of what i would encounter.i was so scared.. my whole body was tense with fear and i didnt know what to expect next. i was also use to an income wasnt alot but nevertheless it was an income and everything changed.
also use to going out with friends from work and had a nice social life at one time believe it or not and i was so scared to let go and float on the flow of the universe.
after my divorce had many relationships that didnt work out and i was carrying a whole load of should say hugh load of responsibility, rasing kids(younger ones) without child support and alot of my own unresolved emotional stuff. i just couldnt take it anymore i was in my 50's then and i surrendered to higher power! i let go and let God ! i wiped the slate clean..feel good about it all now...lol

im starting over again at 64yrs old.starting from scratch.gave most everything away as i felt i didnt need a bunch of stuff.all part of my emotional clearing.

i have cleared my emotional baggage and celluar memory and im starting to lose the weight i gained from going through all this emotional stuff.
my faith was strong and i just trusted in the process and let nature take it course and lots of walking in nature with lots of fresh air.love the fragrance of those pine trees. they make me feel very alive and wonderful..

the message i received from higher guidance and higher wisdom"i'm out of the loop".


Quote: "all Glory comes from daring to begin". eugene f.ware

also want to Quote:charles darwin "it's not the strongest of the species that survive,nor the most intelligent,but the ones most responsive to change".


i probably wont be blogging until jan 2010 going to be busy thru-holidays with family..stay safe and keep on smiling with eyes of your heart..Happy Holidays and many blessings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love all of you......marylen

simply be yourself.you're loved beyond measure by the universe!

Quote:when a door opens walk thru-it.trust the door has opened for a reason and you have been guided to it.Daily Om
i watch my dreams for symbols. couple nights ago i was have dream that i found a baby.it wasnt a newborn was older mabey 2yrs old.baby was dirty in the dream so i pick it up and hugged it and wash and cleaned it up.bright shiny new baby and i sat it in baby chair on the porch.baby was so cute and clean.i was so proud of him.(guess it was a him)in the dream. i take it the dream meant i took my life and it was dirty and i cleaned it up and i was so proud of it after all my hard work.i get symbolic dream often and i go insane until i can figure them out.LOL
i seem to be a different person after my downtime of many yrs. i'm rising up a new person with honesty and integrity along with a new rewewed sense of self.i spent most of my life having no self esteem. i was doing self sabotage.took me many yrs to realize all this.i dropped all the self sabotage and illusions. . i surrendered. i have come along way from where i started.
im putting all this out there for others that are going through-same thing.
was it worth it? when i was going thru all those symptoms and the roller-coaster emotions i thought no not worth it.since most symptoms have passed im starting to see clearly and use my heart feeling center to do my thinking.yes it worth it now.i feel much better!!
whats the reward for for all this in my opinion? love frequency activation and love heals all.nature helps too!
i feel now that i have graduated to next rung of the ladder. when people tell me they going thru alot i always say: i feel for you been there done that.

just want to spend the rest of my life peace."there's a peace that surpasses all understanding". bible

Quote:I love the recklessness of faith 1st you leap then you grow wings.wm sloan coffin

dont forget to dance and smile everyday through-eyes of your heart...i do!!
blessings!!!!!marylen