"the quieter you become the more you can hear". Ram Das

"look within.the secret is inside".Hui-neg

not much going on these days in fact its really quiet.everything around me seems to be at standstill and im not sure if thats good or bad !! i have this morn been going thru-alot of notes that i have wrote since i have had this fatigue. i cannot believe all the deep(heart deep material)i have wrote.i spent most my life in carnal based thinking.my thinking at the time.thought that was the way life was suppose to be...BOY was i wrong!! i was on my knee's at 56yrs and i couldn't get up.i was so broken from life's pitfalls and negative circumstances that i had no control over.so..............

i left it all behind.got rid of everything and kept the bare minimum to live on.gave away most my clothes as they reminded me of my job i quit of 20yrs and most my furniture and i never looked back just kept truckin !!


to pursue something deeper.my spiritual growth or should i say unfolding of the soul and im certainly not sorry i chose that path.now im guided by my soul and ready for the next step in evolution.

i drive backward with devine guidance.i had this dream aleast 2 times about driving my car(vehicle) in reverse.in one dream i thought you know if i turn my car around the right way i can go faster.takes much longer to get there driving backward. i think the dream means there's no short-cuts.just devine guidance and trusting without looking!! hooooooray figured that dream out.LOL

quote:vb brown "when you're reluctant to change,think of the beauty of autumn".

MY Quietude "ROCKS" lol

i feel i have grown so much in past few yrs.its truly a good feeling and i want to write you a poem i wrote several yrs back.my kids probably laugh because i never had in poetry in me LOL
here goes:

poetry i wrote in 2006

My soul has set me free to be the person i was intended to be!

you are creative and rightly so.

you're impurties have been pounded out-anger-dishonesty-unloyalty.they have all been purged.

now you represent me,nice and shiny and renewed.

i now stand before god to claim my kingdom that was intended for me,because you see God has set me free to be the devine person i was intended to be.....

the void in my life has been filled with the beautiful ,awesome spirit of the kingdom !! the end


"your lantern must first be lit before you start swinging".


next week june 21st summer solstice mabey have more news by then.like i said really quiet at the moment except for the all the daily catastrophe's in the news.all those news stories are heartbreaking and i sure can feel for all those people. God bless'em !!


keep love in your heart and keep smiling always love marylen

everything on this earth matters! if it didnt matter we wouldnt be here !!

im getting the mindset of 2012 thinking.total peace for our planet no more wars.no more people fighting people in everyday life.a mindset of peace and calm for the planet.if everyone would become peaceful then war would not exist..

this earth deserves so much more respect than she gets.i walk at the park by my house almost everyday and i cant believe how much trash that people just throw around and there's trash receptacles all around. the park's free and the guys that work there doing maintenance have to go around cleaning up after people.humanity needs to get in alignment with nature and the cosmo's start accepting responsibility and accountability for their own being and stop shifting the blame to others.we must honor earth and ourselves to rise up and be who we truly are Devine children of the most high.....

we are all being awakened to collectively to raise up the planets vibration.our etheric egg that surrounds us getting ready to pop. start crackin open and we all will be little fledlings(young and inexperieced) we will be flapping of tiny little wings LOL.we are ending the old and new beginnings simultaneously.its like anxiety and exhilaration.relief the old worn out ways are ending and excited,anticipation of the new beginnings..

we must all trust our inner child like faith and believe with you heart and trust our inner guidance system steer us in the direction we need to go.

quote:Ralph waldo Emerson"were very near to greatness one step and were safe.can we not take the leap".

my c.fatigue syn.alot,i mean alot better now only been close to ten yrs.lol the symptoms are fading fast and i feel so much better now and my life has more meaning.i spent many-many yrs in the wilderness(figure of speech) but i did learn so more than i ever knew possible.i learn where my heart really is...life's not about stuff..money cant buy happiness because happiness come thru-the heart.we humans are emotional beings.the wilderness taught me to be humble and to have attitude of gratitude.be grateful each day for something.each night before bed i count my blessings.im 65yrs and i made it this far LOL.im very grateful for that!!

I belive experiences in life will turn into wisdom later in life.

"strange as it may seem to you there exists a mystic power thats able to transform your life so thoroughly so radically so completely that when the process is completed your own friends would hardly recognize you".Dr.emmet fox

thank you guys for listening today.many blessings!! love marylen

For all those years you have protected the seed.its time to become the beautiful flower ! stephen c.paul

Time to blossom ! whole lot of eggs are going to start crackin. its time to stand up and be what we all came here to be! time to shine our divine light!

magical awakening can arise out of you.let go of the illusions and unfulfilled dreams and all the drama of life and focus on nature and all its beauty.just be content in the simple life and do what you can and leave the rest to God!

all these earth changes causing the human race alot of anxiety.i have been having alot trouble sleeping at night because of the anxiety.feels alot like stress. i try to stay inside alot but guess watch to much news LOL.each day i get up out bed i think what next? seems like each new day another catastrophe it all plays on my nerves.i do my best to stay grounded in nature.helps me alot.no matter how much i try to give up the outside world still have connections to it. "hope is the parent of faith".cyrus a.bartol


"what lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us".Ralph waldo Emerson


right now I open myself to new perspective on my life.i have gone as far as i can with my old thinking and living.im ready and willing to embrace my soul's next step in evolution.i shall travel the path that spirit illuminates before me.


"where there's Great Love there are always miracles".willa cather

keep a smile on your face and a song in your heart.blessings marylen

Quote:wm.ernest henley "I am the master of my fate:I am the captain of my soul".

i am a pilgrim on a spiritual journey.renaissance unity.

i felt back in 2001 that i was pregnant with new life-not in a physical sense.i even gain weight especially around my stomach area just like in real pregnancy ! talk to several people with fibromyalgia and they said same thing happen to them.

i was pregnant in a spiritual sense this process took almost 10yrs.now i feel like im getting ready to give birth to a new life or a new creativity.

our planet getting ready to give birth..a new cycles starts dec.2012. we be miraclous to be reborn into a brand new way of being.we will have a higher calling we will listen to our own higher guidance system. life will turn and renew itself.all humanity will have to take responsibility and accountability for own actions.


the earth and all her inhabitants will celebrate anew life a new way of thinking and acting.letting go of the past and all of its negavity.we all are here to hold light and love and healing for our beloved planet called mother earth.she is so awesomely beautiful..........im waiting patiently for the egg to crack !!!

earth is having birth pains simply watch the sky for signs.(bible)


jesus called the being"born anew"which means giving birth to the spiritual self of you.this requires placing yourself in alignment with the christ of your being so that you can take directions from a "higher source".as you do so,you discover that you can rely on inner-dependence and your life begin's a process of transformation.....Ron Scott


I make a conscious decision to live from the perfect self that lives within me...renaissance unity



just want to say im finally getting use to my new pc.still alot to learn as each pc alittle different.anyway so delighted to be back in the internet action (fun) LOL


takecare and keep your light burning bright !! love marylen

All i can say "whole lot shaking going on,"

I'm finally back on internet from what seems like a nightmare.i had dail-up internet for almost 11yrs and the company did away with it and i had to go to high speed internet.which means you have to have special modem kit which was suppose to be mailed to me thru-UPS that was never ordered. guess the girl that took the order forgot to submit it.must be mercury retrograde starting early LOL. so i spent countless hours with tech.support waiting mostly on hold.each tech.support assistant telling me different story one saying you'll rec' the part on the day of installation. Nota.never rec'd. called again another tech.agent saying dont see that part was ever ordered.called again and again LOL.finally went and bought my own part and it cost me 80.00 which the company suppose to send me gift card for the reinburse me.then i had to set up and another pc system which not to difficult except it dosent work like my old pc.had alittle bit of difficulty with that.


this whole ordeal with pc and high speed internet just stressed me out to the max. last night first night slept well in long time. so

anyway back on line "thank you God".

most people and family and friends couldn't help.my son says he's not pc savvy.so my point is if im to get back on line once again going to have to do this myself. guess what:

im amazed that i was able to put it all together and hook up to internet myself. never knew had this in me.LOL

anyway want to say im still alive and back on line.such a good feeling!!

love and light and many blessing too!! love marylen

Honor your adversities for out of them will come light !

i found these notes this morn that i wrote back in feb.2004 and i had forgot about writing them. reading it after several yrs. brought tears to my eyes !

here goes: God lift me up. I have been down way to long.I have learned alot along my spiritual path. you taught me so well ! I had to be broken by you so that i would be able to see the light shine brighter into all area's of my life. I know now that spiritual process developes over time.its a mountain that we all must climb to the top.then we are graced with your goodness.the top of a mountain same as a bridge in my view.the bridge put's us at a distance from our past-that's it no longer important only that we have learn from it and use it as examples. the bridge also important for contemplating our future.the latter house house is grater than the former house.we are the head not the tail. the bible
my life has been a struggle but also have been blessed and i wouldn't trade my life for anything.im rich within spirit.

I will walk in faith and confess the word with my mouth.I will listen with (not my head) but with my heart.I will use compassion and discard judgements and criticism's. I will do mental housecleaning and discard what's old and no longer work's in my life.i will not manipulate or be around any manipulater's.
I choose joy and happiness to be my mindset for the remainder of my life here on earth !!

Quote:wm.a.ward "adversity causes some men to break; others to break records."

Quote:helen keller"keep your face to the sun and you'll never see your shadow".

Quote:marianne williamson "were not done until God ring's the bell".

wish me luck im going to be installing another pc its not new but much newer than this one.this pc freezes and crashes alot and im just tired of dealing with it.i probably wont be blogging for 2-3 weeks until everything back in order!

love and light and many blessings too! marylen

Quote: margaret fuller "If you have knowledge let others light their candle in it".

I found this small article in a magazine from 2001
i was browsing through recently.It makes so much sense .give thanks with thanksgiving.we all have so much to be thankful for-so much in our lives we just take for granted.no one signed this little article its by anonymous.here goes:

"counting your blessings.if you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over head and a place to sleep....you are richer than seventy-five percent of the world.
if you have money in the bank or in your wallet and spare change in a dish someplace....you are among the top eight percent of the worlds wealthy.
if you woke up this morning with more health than illness....you are more blessed than the million that will not survive this week.
if you never experienced the danger of battle,the lonliness of imprisonment.the agony of torture or the pangs of starvation.....you are ahead of 500million people in the world.
if you attend a church meeting or spiritual gathering without fear of harassment,arrest,torture or death...you are more blessed than 3 billion people in the world.
if your parents are still alive and still married...you are very rare,even in the united states.
if you read this message you are more blessed than over 2 billion people in the world who cannot read at all.
if you hold someone's hand,hug them or even touch them on the shoulder..you are blessed because you can offer a healing touch.
if you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful....you are blessed because the majority can,but most do not.
now go forth and share your blessing with rest of the planet"...........anonymous

Quote: " Gratitude is the heart's memory" french proverb

with all the chaos and unpredictability of the planet at the moment we all need to stop a moment and just be thankful and grateful for all the goodness in our lives !!

proverbs 3:5 "lean not unto thine own understanding but trust in the lord with all thine heart".

Quote:"you cant stop the waves but you can learn to surf". unknown

love and light and many blessings to all of you ! marylen